of coffees and messages [epistolary #1]

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October 24, 2015, Sunday

Rav:
My answer is still no, just so you know.

Rav:
I'm home.

Read 07:00 p.m.

Mish:
Ravie, please.

Mish:
Just this semester. Kailangan ko lang mag-focus sa study. After that, kapag naibalik ko na sa dati lahat, magbabalikan naman tayo, eh.

Mish:
It's just a cool off. And a little freedom for you to think things through.

Read 07:03 p.m.

Rav:
Hindi nga ako makikipag-hiwalay. Kahit isang araw lang yan, hindi, Mish. Kahit ano pang itawag mo sa temporary breakup na sinasabi mong yan, hindi ako papayag.

Rav:
Huwag mo solohin yung problema.

Rav:
I'm here, right? Nakalimutan mo na ba? The 3Cs that Hiraya taught us?

Rav:
At wala na akong pag-iisipan pa. I'm done thinking about who am I going to end up with. At ikaw yon. Wala na. Wala na akong ibang gustong makasama kaya this whole temporary breakup you're talking about is pointless.

Read 07:06 p.m.

Rav:
And please, don't cry.

Rav:
Hindi tayo maghihiwalay, kahit na anong sabihin mo.

Read 07:07 p.m.

Mish:
This is the only thing na naiisip ko.

Mish:
I can't focus on two or more things at the same time.

Mish:
I'm just afraid that you'll get tired of me whenever I focused on my studies. That's for sure na mawawala ka sa routine ko.

Read 07:09 p.m.

Mish:
I might lose my time for you. You'll end up getting tired of watching me study the whole time.

Read 07:10 p.m.

Rav:
I don't care.

Rav:
As long as I know that you're mine, I don't mind compromising.

Rav:
Please, stop asking me for a temporary breakup because I can't.

Rav:
Don't you want me to help you get back on your position?

Rav:
We'll help each other. We'll study together more and I will do everything for you, but not this temporary breakup, please.

Read 07:13 p.m.

Rav:
Baby, ask for my help in studies because I can help you too. 😢

Read 07:14 p.m.

Mish:
I know. But please, I want to study on my own.

Mish:
I know you're smart and I'm proud of you for still being part of the outstanding achiever.

Mish:
But let me do this, please?

Mish:
Let me focus on studies. I can only do that when I won't focus on other things.

Read 07:16 p.m.

Rav:
Remember what I told you before?

Rav:
Mish, I can focus on our relationship while you focus on your studies. I know you didn't forget that because of your long term memory.

Rav:
If your way of compromise is to give me up temporarily

Rav:
I will focus on this relationship to make sure that we won't fall apart, while you'll focus on the more important things aka studing

Rav:
That is how I compromise.

Rav:
I'll stay committed with you, whatever happens.

Read 07:20 p.m.

Mish:
Committed pa rin naman ako sayo kahit na naka-break tayo.

Mish:
Ayaw ko lang na paghintayin ka nang ganoon, na nagfo-focus ako sa iba.

Mish:
I know you get my point.

Mish:
I don't want you get hurt.

Rav:
But you're hurting me by asking for a temporary breakup, baby. 😔

Mish:
That's a one time pain.

Mish:
The one you plan to do is a long term pain.

Rav:
I can manage about that.

Rav:
As long as you're with me, I can care less about anything.

Rav:
It's you or nothing at all.

Rav:
That's final.

Rav:
Sana maintindihan mo ako, Mish. Kung hindi kita kayang suportahan sa gusto mong yan. Mahal na mahal lang kita, at hindi ko kayang i-give up to, kahit na temporary pa.

Read 07:28 p.m