of coffees and messages [epistolary #1]

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October 27, 2017, Friday

Mish:
So, you finally deleted our photos sa IG mo.

Read 10:45 p.m.

Rav:
Yes.

Rav:
It's long overdue, actually.

Read 10:47 p.m.

Mish:
Rav...

Mish:
Hindi ba talaga pwedeng ayusin?

Mish:
Wala namang nagbago. Kahit ilang buwan na ang nagdaan simula naghiwalay tayo.

Mish:
Tang ina, ang tanga tanga ko. Pero mahal pa rin kita.

Read 10:51 p.m.

Rav:
I'm going to sleep. Good night, Mish.

Mish:
Ravie, kung hindi mo ako babalikan, pwede bang maghanap ka na lang ng iba?

Mish:
Nahihirapan ako kasi umaasa akong ako pa rin, eh. Pwede bang mag-girlfriend ka na? Ayaw mo naman nang bumalik sa akin, di ba?

Read 10:55 p.m.

Rav:
Mish, hindi ko kaya yang pinagagawa mo. Hindi ako gumagamit ng ibang tao para sa sariling kapakanan.

Rav:
Bakit hindi ikaw ang mag-boyfriend ng iba?

Read 10:57 p.m.

Mish:
Kasi ikaw lang nga ang gusto ko. Please, Ravie.

Read 10:58 p.m.

Rav:
Please what?

Mish:
Ayusin na natin 'to. Hindi ako sigurado pero pakiramdam ko, mahal mo pa ako.

Read 11:00 p.m.

Rav:
Mish, matulog ka na.

Mish:
Ravie, can't we just sort things out? I promise, I will be the one to compromise on all aspects. Just come back to me.

Read 11:02 p.m.

Rav:
Don't beg.

Rav:
Never ever beg to anyone, Mish.

Rav:
You're more than that.

Read 11:04 p.m.

Mish:
You're making me beg! I have no choice, Rav. I want you back. At umaasa pa rin ako na tulad ko, mahal mo pa rin ako.

Read 11:07 p.m.

Rav:
Hindi na kita mahal.

Rav:
Mish, anim na buwan na tayong hiwalay.

Rav:
Ano pa bang dapat kong gawin para 'wag kang magmakaawa sa akin na balikan ka?

Rav:
I can't come back to you because I'm done. I've used up everything I have to save my love for you. Pinaliwanag ko na to sayo noon.

Rav:
Matalino kang tao. That day, I know you understood everything I told you.

Rav:
Ayaw mo ng sugar-coating words, so I told you I got pissed off because you were so self-centered. You forgot about me.

Rav:
I told you everything in the worst possible way. Ano pa bang kailangan kong gawin para lang huwag mo nang isiping babalik pa ako?

Read 11:12 p.m.

Rav:
I am done.

Rav:
Don't fucking beg for me anymore, please. Don't make me beg you for it.

Read 11:14 p.m.

Mish:
Hindi mo na ako mahal?

Read 11:15 p.m.

Rav:
Hindi na.

Mish:
Sa haba ng pinagsamahan natin, ganoon lang kadali sayo ang lahat?

Read 11:16 p.m.

Rav:
Oo.

Read 11:17 p.m.

Mish:
Then, tell me that in person.

Mish:
Saka pa lang ako maniniwala.

Read 11:18 p.m.

Mish:
You didn't reply.

Mish:
I knew it. Hindi mo kaya.

Sent 11:23 p.m.
Read 11:30 p.m.

Rav:
Come out of your house. I'm outside. I will say it to you without blinking an eye.

Read 11:32 p.m.

Rav:
Hindi ako aalis dito hanggang hindi ka lumalabas.

Rav:
You want to punish me so bad, right?

Rav:
Then I'll punish myself so fucking bad.

Read 11:40 p.m.

Rav:
Labas ka o kakalampagin ko ang bahay niyo?

Read 11:50 p.m.

Mish:
You're that desperate, frustrated, to totally get rid of me in your life huh

Read 11:52 p.m.

Mish:
Okay. Ito na ako.

Read 11:55 p.m.