Suicidal

Chapter 9: Harry's POV

I get into the car and drive to the store. I hear AJ screaming
"Harry! Don't kill yourself!"
"Where are you going, Hazza?!"
I was just going to get something. She needs to realise that I want to die, but I won't do it when she expects me to. Otherwise, I know she'll come after me and try to stop me. I want to die; why doesn't she understand that? I pull into the parking lot of the store and walk inside. I know how ugly I look. I'm wearing a hoodie and sweatpants and of course my hair is in a bun. I look so ugly. And it doesn't help that I'm so fat.
"Ew! Harry Styles!" I hear someone say.
"Kill yourself, you whore!" I've tried.
"No one likes you! Not even your girlfriend!" Someone else shouts. I know.
"I know! Just leave me alone!" I scream, starting to cry. No wonder AJ doesn't want me going out alone. I walk inside and go to the magazine section. There's a magazine with me-ugly, fat me- on the cover. It says "Harry Styles-Time To Die?" I flip to that page and it shows all the hate tweets I get and it shows me telling AJ I want to die, when I was in the hospital. I put the magazine away and go back out to my car. When I get back to my car, there are 5 people standing there.
"Aw, Harry. Did you think we would just leave you alone?" The tallest person says.
"N-no...." I say.
"Well Harry, no one likes you. You're fat and ugly and worthless. Go kill yourself. Everyone hates you." One of the others says.
"I-I know...... And I've tried to kill myself, but my girlfriend won't leave me alone! All she does is try to stop me from killing myself. But I want to die! I need to die but I can't! Here," I throw my car keys at them, "just run me over with my own car! I'm sick of living like this! I'm sick of living at all! I just want to die already! Someone just kill me! I'm miserable, I'm fat, I'm ugly, I'm worthless. No one likes me! I need to die! I need to die......" I'm crying now.
"Aw, stupid little Harry. Now we aren't going to kill you. We're just going to make you more miserable." They say, throwing my keys back at me.
"But-" I say.
"Boo, you whore!" They say and drive off. I drive back home, still crying.
"Hazza! Oh Harry..... What happened, baby?" AJ says, hugging me.
"Nothing..... Just nothing.." I tell her.
"Harry, it looks like something bad happened. Why are you crying?" AJ asks calmly.
"No reason...."
"Harry."
"I'm serious!" I protest.
"Harry, please tell me why you're crying. Please?" AJ pleads.
"Fine. I was at the store and some people kept insulting me and just being so mean and I told them I tried to kill myself and how I don't want to live anymore and how I need to die. I told them 'somebody just kill me already! I don't want to live anymore!' I said I was fat, ugly, and worthless and so they said they wouldn't kill me. I just want to die. Can you please let me kill myself?" I sob.
"No.... Harry, no. No, no, no...... You were going to let them kill you? Harry...... No. No, no, no, no. No. No, no, no, no. Harry, don't scare me like that again! You had me so worried...... I don't..... I can't..... How exactly did you tell them to kill you?" She asks me.
"I-I gave them my car keys and told them to run me over..... I just wanted to die...." I say sadly.
"Harry...... Oh Harry....." She says.
"They were right...... They were right..... He really isn't going to be the same ever again....." AJ mutters under her breath, choking back tears.
"AJ?"
"Nothing-it's nothing, Harry."
"O-okay...."
I really don't know who she was talking about, all I know is she was talking about me at the end...... And it was true; I'll never be the same Harry she fell in love with because I'm this fat, ugly, suicidal mess. I never smile anymore, I'm just miserable. She knows I want to die. No, I need to die.