(2 weeks later)
I'm acting like everything's okay. I'm acting like I'm all better and like my depression doesn't affect me anymore. But it does. I end up waking up at 6:30 AM, and since AJ is still asleep, I take my backpack, fill it with some food and clothes and stuff, and head out. I have a note tied to a brick in my backpack, and I'm going to leave it somewhere to make it look like I killed myself. Then I'm going to get on a bus and just live in the wild, alone, until I finally die.
"Goodbye, my love." I say as I head out the door, a tear rolling down my cheek. AJ will probably be so upset that I left her, after I promised her I was better..... I just can't come back. No matter how hard it hurts, I can't go back. I can't return to AJ crying. Suddenly, as I'm walking across the street, someone jumps on top of me.
"Harry!" They shout.
"Y-yes......" I say nervously.
"Where you going, whore?"
"N-nowhere....." I tell him.
"Oh really. Well maybe this will teach you not to lie to me." He takes a knife out of his pocket.
"I'll slit your throat unless you tell me." He growls.
"F-fine! I'm running away from my girlfriend and planting evidence I killed myself so I won't be a burden to her. But can you kill me anyways?" I sob.
"No, Harry. I'm gonna let you run away. I'll even give your note to your girlfriend and say I found you lying on the ground, dead." He says.
"O-okay..... T-tell her I love her....." I sob.
"Of course."
I know he's lying. No one is that nice to me. No one. Everyone hurts me in some way. Sure, he called me a whore and threatened to kill me, but it's not like people haven't done worse things. I drag myself onto the bus, and I end up falling asleep.
*Dreaming*
"Harry? Harry, where are you?" I hear AJ's voice.
"Baby, I'm right here..... Where you going?" I call to her. This must be what's happening at home-or what will happen.
"Harry? Harry where are you?! PLEASE ANSWER BABY! I CAN'T LOSE YOU!" She screams into a phone.
"I'm right here! AJ! Please don't cry over me......." I walk over to her, hugging her and kissing her.
*Dream over*
I can't let this happen. I miss AJ too much. I wake up finally.
"Oh, no..... I missed my stop!" I scream to myself. I look out the window and I'm in the middle of nowhere. I walk outside, still holding my backpack, and see tiny flakes of white slowly coming down from the sky.
"It's..... Snowing." I say to myself. I get all huddled up and warm with my hoodie, but I'm still freezing. I get a call from AJ. I can't answer it. She thinks I'm dead..... Right? I listen to her message.
"Harry, if you can hear this message, I love you, I miss you. You're my whole world. I just want you to come back. Please come back to me! I miss you so much, Harry. I need you! Please don't kill yourself or anything like that! Please just remember I love you!"
I-I love you too...... I thought.
I stay there for a while, but then some guy comes and takes out a knife.
"No.... Please don't kill me....." I can't believe I'm saying this.
"Oh please. I won't kill you, I'll just hurt you." He slices his knife through my skin and he rips my shirt.
"P-please....." I beg.
"Please what?"
"Please don't kill me...." I tell him. He just laughs and walks away. There's about an inch of snow here. I still don't know where I am......
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Suicidal
FanfictionI'm just going to write part of the story because I'm terrible at descriptions. "See, Harry," I say, showing him a beautiful picture of the city, "these are reasons to live." "Looks like a perfect place to die to me," Harry says. "Harry, just liste...
