Before I continue with this, I just to say I'm sorry. I'm sorry Kageyama, I really tried but I just couldn't do it. I haven't felt happiness in so long. My life didn't go as I planned, at all but I am happy I met you. When we started going out in high school I thought it was a prank or a joke but I'm happy it wasn't. In our second year I already had planned out what I wanted our future to be. I hoped we'd graduate high school together then go to college together. Even if we didn't go to the same college, long distance wouldn't be problem for me. After we graduate college, I would propose and we'd move in together. We'd get married then if you wanted we could adopt a kid or two. We would watch our kids grow up and we'd be watching then leave us to go live their life.I thought that we would be together forever but you left me. I noticed that every time I looked into your eyes there were filled of sadness. We would laugh and smile but your eyes never changed. The sadness never left. When I asked what was wrong you would always make up lies. I thought it was because of me or a family matter. I tried to cheer you up everyday to try and make to forget whatever was making you have that look but it never went away. I tried but you always looked sad. Every time I close my eyes I think about the day I found you in the bathroom crying. I think about the words you said to me. I broke down in tears with you . I hated myself after hearing everything. I couldn't even notice a single thing. I thought it was something we could break through and I could get you back. Why didn't you tell me sooner? It was a life or death situation yet you didn't tell me a damn thing until it was too late. I never told you how I felt. I always tried to make good memories even when you had to start staying in the hospital. Everyday you got worse but I never brought it up. I never wanted you to think about us parting ways. I wanted you to be happy until your last breath. Before you left you told me not to do anything stupid. You told me to carry out my dream but with somebody else. I don't understand how you could say such a thing. You know what we've been through. You know that we leaned on each other for support. I tried to fulfill your final request but I can't. I tried so hard but I see you everywhere. Every time I close my eyes, every time I go to sleep, every time I look in the mirror I see you. I barely leave the house anymore. I lay in bed for almost the whole day yet I have heavy eye bags, I lost a lot of weight, and got really pale. I know I'm making everybody worry about me and I really hate it. I wish you and I could be together again. I don't think I can take it anymore. I tried....I really tried but I can't. I can't take it anymore. In the afterlife do you think we'll be able to meet again? I know you told me not to do anything stupid but I feel like I'm trapped in a corner and this is the only way out.
I'm sorry.
Hello! I'm sorry it took me so long to get a story out but I've been really busy and everytime I wrote a one shot I didn't really like it so I decided I'll wait till I get some free time to write a somewhat decent one shot. Anyways thank you for your patience. Bye!💜
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