Bitter Bliss: A Poetry Collection

Acceptance

I don't know how to describe this feeling

this loneliness, this disappointment, this crush gone through the ceiling.

On the day that capitalizes the L word,

I want you back, maybe, for another dream that was spurred

of the future I wanted, I saw, in my head

and was perfect, beautiful even, but misled.

There were so many differences, changes

things that would never have made it.

I told myself I was all right

and I tried to believe it with all my might.

But I could never stop feeling the pain

stop needing you like a beacon through the pouring rain.

I was manipulative, though I didn't see it

ignoring your tears, silent and moonlit.

I thought what we had was glittering and gold

but now, in hindsight, my heart grows cold.

I wish the future was always clear like ice

but ours wasn't, and I paid the price.

I knew it would end, I really did,

but I ignored it all, because I'm just a kid.

So now I smile at you, at peace with the past

accepting and understanding our parting at last.