My emotions lurk out of sight
a storm, a hurricane, swirling, swirling,
behind my empty eyes.
Sometimes it swells like fire;
others, the eye passes over me
and all is calm.
But still, I'm afraid, always wondering
when it will come back.
Each time, it is worse.
I told him I'll get through it
because I always do.
I didn't tell him I tried last week
to end it all.
What if I don't make it through this time?
What if I wasn't dealing with it okay?
He wouldn't know.
But he could guess.
I wish he would.
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Bitter Bliss: A Poetry Collection
PoetryMy fourth poetry collection, raw and original. My deepest fears, most insecure thoughts, and cruelest wishes. 🖤🖤Trigger warning: everything🖤🖤