Yuanfen / / Jenlisa AU/ /

I Wish You Knew

a/n carrying on from the previous chap. 

I lay Lisa down carefully in the bed, seeing as she had just finished vomiting.

She groans and snivels harshly, making me wonder if she's sucking up her brain or something

"d-don't. . . d-don't leave me" she whimpers, eyes still shut as a few tears trickle out.

I lean down and place a kiss on her forehead.

"Night Lisa"

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"Hey Chan" I say, obviously not too happy

But you get what you get

"Hey Jen, how's it going?" Bang Chan asks worried.

Maybe if I had just given him a chance I wouldn't be stuck in such deep shit now

"The best it could I guess. I-I'm guessing you know why I'm calling?" 

I hear a bit of shuffling from his end before he clears his throat

"Yeah I can take a rough guess" His thick Australian accent brings a small smile to my face.

"Are you sure though?" He asks once more, as if he himself can't believe it

"No, but I know what will happen if I stay"

He sighs once more and hums

"We can do it whenever you want Jen. Your choice"

The sooner I forget about her the better

" Tomorrow? Late hours? I wanna spend the day with my mom and dad."

"Around what time?"

"18:00 (6pm) Maybe?"

"I'll note it down. I'm sorry you have do this Jennie"

Me too

"Come down tomorrow yeah? And bring Felix too" I say, trying to distract myself from the hollow feeling in my chest

It's like she's already gone

"Bye Chan"

"See you Jen"

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I make my way to the sofa to sleep when Chaeyoung stops me

"Was that Bang Chan?"

I nod my head and smile

"yeah, we were just discussing a few things"

Chaeyoung looks at me in shock

"You actually chose the surgery? Your not even gonna fight for her?"

I scoff and walk around her

"I've been fighting for a while Chaeyoung, I'd rather just give up while I still have my life."

I lay on the sofa and close my eyes, hoping the voice will stop just for tonight

" I'm not mad you took the opportunity Jen. I'm mad because I know for a damn fact your not gonna tell her. Your just gonna let her hurt, and for what? Petty revenge"

"If I tell her. And she looks at me, if she begs me not too, like we both know she will. I won't do it. You know that. I know that too. I wrote her something anyways. I'll be out in the morning to spend some time with my parents. I'll have the surgery at 6"