BL OneShots

Wish You Didn't Love Me

  His lifestyle wasn't the best.

  What he did for a living wasn't the best either, it was far from proper.

I wish you didn't love me.

  Why do you love me? How could you give your heart to someone like me?

I wish you didn't care about me at all.

  How could you even have a tinge of worry for somebody like me?

'Cause even I don't trust me.

  Why... why do you still believe me when I say, it's the last one before I start over a new leaf? Why do you still hang around even after all the lies? I can't trust myself anymore, I can't trust myself to keep you safe.

Baby, I ain't no magician...

But I might disappear tonight.

  It plaques me to think that the next day when you wake up, that familiar warmth would be gone. My things, all gone.

I want you.

But I can't be the reason why you lose faith in everything that you find.

  Because of me, you fell out with your friends and family. You almost lost your job. Your once beautiful self, it's gone.

  It was all me and yet all I could do every time was to hug you, rub your back and say "I'm sorry".

I'm warning you now, Babe.

Go run and hide.

  That's why tonight, it would really be the last and final 'job' of mine. After this, it all ends.

  That's why, you had to leave. Regardless of your screaming and begging, all your crying...

  You had to go.

And maybe in another life,

We can try this one more time.

  I had a feeling this job would fail.

  I had a feeling yesterday's kiss would be the last one.

But right now please don't love me,

'Cause I don't deserve you at all.

  I took everything of mine with me tonight. Even the necklace I gave you.

  I don't want to leave you with any traces to remember that I once existed in your life.

  There was only one thing that I left with you, your heart. I returned it last night.

  And I'm glad, glad that I'm leaving the world now without taking you away from it. I want you to live out your life with someone else worth it. Someone who treats you right, who gives you happiness. Who never lies to you. Who never puts in any danger.

  Then, in our next life... I'll chase you again, give you everything you deserve and make sure that I deserve you.

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Kit: No ship this time so no emoji or symbol, but still is BL? 😂

-18/2/2021-