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Ricky- Panic Attack (3)

E.J. POV (switching it up bro)

Also, they are in the theater room, not the auditorium

We were on a break currently and Ricky was dozing off since we haven't been needed for the past hour. He and Nini had lots of late-nights and extra rehearsals so no one had the heart to wake him right now. I just studied my lines. None of us honestly knew what happened but all of a sudden Ricky was in the midst of a panic attack. Carlos stopped his argument with Miss Jenn over a part of the choreography and joined the rest of us. 

"Ricky what's wrong." Nini was frantic but calm as Ricky backed away from people holding his head. 

We could all see him gasping for air because he was crying so hard. 

"Ricky you need to take a deep breath you'll get sick," I said remembering when he had one a few days ago. 

Something none of us were prepared for was for Ricky to start hitting himself.

"Make it stop. stop. stop. just stop. make it, make it stop," we heard him mumbling.

Finally, Nini was able to get close enough to him and pull him close. He kept hitting his head with his hands. I stepped in and grabbed them gently so he stopped. Big Red ran over and grabbed Ricky's guitar and handed it to Ashlyn. 

"Play something quickly." Ashlyn started playing 'Rest Easy' because Ricky had taught her the piano part a few days ago. 

Nini recognized it immediately (even with Ashlyn converting it on the spot) and started singing along. Ricky stopped struggling against my grip and I let his wrists go. Carlos brought some water over, as Miss Jenn was on the phone with his dad. About 10 minutes later Ricky finally said something.

"Please don't fight." We all knew why he had panicked now. 

Seb sat with Ricky while the rest of us did a huddle. 

"I feel really bad. " We all looked over at Carlos who was looking at the ground.

"No Carlos don't be." Nini said hugging him.

"Yeah, we didn't know this would happen. Besides he was asleep last we had all checked." Gina added.

"But Ricky is over there like de-habilitated (Idk if it a word so pretend it is) from a panic attack that I caused by fighting with Miss Jenn," Carlos said with tears forming.

Seb walked over and pulled him into a hug. 

"Seb you are supposed to be with Ricky," Ashlyn said.

"He fell asleep. It's been like 10 minutes since yall huddled up." 

We all looked over and saw Ricky curled up on the floor with Sebs and his jacket draped over him. 

"We should finish rehearsal. I called his dad and he isn't home. I need all of you to rehearse so I can't send anyone home with him. EJ can you and Big Red move him to a more comfortable spot?"

"Sure thing Miss Jenn," I said and Big Red nodded in agreement.

After we got him situated on 3 chairs we continued rehearsal. Nini was on edge the whole time, well all of us were. This was the 4th panic attack Ricky has had in the past week and a half. It isn't healthy. I went to get a drink of water and realized Ricky was awake. 

"Hey bud how are you feeling?" Ricky just looked at me confused. "You had a panic attack, and you were just asleep the past hour. Rehearsal is almost over now." Now Ricky had a face of realization.

"I'm still tired, and groggy, and just feeling exhausted." 

"These attacks really tucker you out don't they." He nodded. "Well drink some water and hang out, we only have like 20 minutes left." 

I walked back over to the group and saw them smiling at me.

"What?" 

"When did you have such a soft spot for Ricky?" Gina asked.

"Because panic attacks aren't something you want to get all the time? Why can't I be nice to him when last year we didn't get along but do now."

"I think it's sweet," Nini said.

"Yeah, it just catches us off guard sometimes because your both technically each other's ex's ex because he and Nini dated before you and her lol," Ashlyn said laughing a bit.

We went back to finish the scene and wrapped up the rehearsal. I helped Nini and Big Red get the exhausted Ricky home since the two had skated and Nini walked. We laughed the whole car ride and Ricky perked up a bit, I think it was from the High school musical jam session. 

Hi, I'm alive.

Fencing and school got in the way of my writing. and writer's block. but I'm working on another story that's maze runner and getting back into this one :) Let's just hope the track and field season doesn't conflict too. 

- me