Beauty & the Beast

Death

Klaus saved me! He DIED for me. I panic. Trying to make it right! I was wreak less. I was awful!
I will never forgive myself.
"No. No. No! Klaus, please wake up," I say desperately.
Because of me... he's gone.
Then suddenly I think about Elijah, Hayley, Kol and Freya. They are going to want answers.
They are going to kill me! But that's fine, I've accepted that.
I deserve to die.
But KLAUS didn't. Elijah believed in his redemption.
I wanted him to be better.
I was a hypocrite. OMG! OMG! His last words...
His very last moments...
If one of us had to die, it should have been me.
"I'm so sorry. Klaus I'm so sorry," I whisper in tears. Water is oozing out of my eyes like I never seen it before.
Then I scream. I scream loud enough for the whole city to hear me.
But none of that matters.
Not anymore!
Because he's dead.
The veins covering his perfect face.
His beautiful eyes wet from his tears looking devastated. Hope loss!
His pink- rouge lips turned to grey ash.
I'm too late. Klaus- klaus was special. He taught me things/ lessons nobody did. He has helped me despite everything he has put me and friends through. At the end of the day, he had never hurt me. He would never hurt me. And I wish I could say the say. But I can't...
I'd be lying if I did.
I hurt him in so many ways.
I tortured him.
I led him on...
"Thank you," I whisper. I kiss him one last time. I look at him for a moment. Half expecting him to wake up. But I know he won't.
He can't.
Because this isn't a fairytale where you can kiss someone and they wake up. This is is real life.
And in real life, it just doesn't happen. Because I don't believe in happy endings. I never did. I just believed in 'endings.'
And this...
was very much...
The end.
The end of our story.
I can't bare to be in that room any longer. But I don't want to leave him alone.
I left the room with the Corps. I need some air. I tidy the house. I tidy my house because that's one of the things I can control. And I need something that I can control to try to calm myself from the things I cannot control. He's gone, and I know that, it's just going to be hard for me to accept that. It's late at night but I don't care. I clean the counter tops, whipe down surfaces and but things away. I just have to do something. Because I know that if I don't. Things can and will go bad. They'll be worse. Though I do not see how things can possibly get worse. I hyperventilate a lot. I need to calm down. I'm freaking out. I feel like a part of me just died. My lip is trembling. I am shaking. I can't dare face the Mikaelsons. I would even know what to tell them or what to say.
"GOD! CAROLINE WHAT HAVE YOU DONE," I cry frustrated.
Why would he do this?
How could he do this?
I thought I was important to him, but I guess not.
But you know what, I deserve it. I've been horrible, manipulative. I spat on someone when they felt so bad. I practically made fun of Klaus when he needed me. He had done so much for me.
I can't even call any of my friends because they all hated Klaus. I don't blame them, he was horrible.
I begin to think about every single moment I spent with him. His words echoing through my mind. My heart is hurting, so bad. But I will not turn of my humanity again. That was a big mistake. And I need to feel pain. This was a lesson that I learned. I need to feel things. It's good to feel things. I took the easier way out and someone paid the price for it.
It ended up with someone getting hurt, someone other than me. If I could take it back I would. If I could die instead I would. If I could fix things then I would.
But this isn't a fantasy.
It's reality, real life in Mystic falls.
And I would love to do all those things to make it better. I want to turn the clock back to when I made the choice...
And do it all again
But I can't!
And I won't get a second chance.
Because HE is dead.
And there's nothing I could do to change that.

Then, I hear footsteps. I automatically jump up! Someone's in the house. Someone's broke in...
I hear them getting louder, like they are coming for me. I hear multiple footsteps. They aren't alone. I turn around.
It's Hayley, Elijah, Kol and Freya. But then I hear someone else coming. At first it's a shadow and I can't make it out. Then they appear.
Nooo....
It can't be....