*PLAY THE SONG*
This was one of the days Jayda felt like shit. She was in her bathroom looking at herself in the mirror. What she saw was an ugly broken girl. She looked to her left and saw a razor. She picked it up and was studying it. She took it to her wrist and slit it. She made seven slits on her arm.
Flashback:
Jayda was at a party with her best friend Zoe. She only went out because Zoe forced her and she thought that Josh was at practice.
The house was a big house with a lot of people. Jayda wasn't a social person she liked to be at home under her duvet and eat ice cream.
Zoe saw her boyfriend and turned to Jayda.
" is it okay if I go to Jalen or do you want me to be with you" Zoe screamed to her in her ear due to the music being loud?
" no no I'm fine, just go, I will go make a drink"
Jayda responded.
"Okay have fun, text me if something happens"
Zoe then left for her boyfriend.
Jayda turned and went to the kitchen to find her something to drink. She took some Hennessy and drank it. She looked outside and saw a person that looked like josh. Jayda went outside and saw that a girl was sitting on his lap and kissing him. Jayda just shook her head and went to get more to drink.
After many drinks, she felt the urge to throw up she found the closest bathroom and let everything out. She took some water from the sink to clean her mouth.
Jayda went to sit on the bed when suddenly a boy came in. "I'm sorry," he said. "No it's fine," Jayda said.
The boy sat beside her and touched her thighs. Jayda tried to move but the boy had a hard grip on her.
"Can you stop?" Jayda said in a soft tone.
"I know you want this" "please"
The boy started to take off his shirt and pants. He took off her top and trousers. Jayda was too drunk to fight against him. He started to put himself in. Jayda was stuck. She had tears running down her face. She couldn't believe she was raped...
Back to normal:
Jayda has never told anyone about the story except her therapist. She felt she was drowning inside and couldn't breathe. She started taking breathing exercises.
Jayda had been broken so many times throughout her life. Jayda's parents were divorced. They were like a happily married couple for many years. Then a few years after Jayda was born everything started to go downhill. Her father cheated on her mother, they argued every night. Jayda had a close relationship with her father. she was a daddy girl. her mother started to work a lot so Jayda never got her mom's support. Her father moved to New York with his new family. She wished she had a happy family.
Her mind went to josh. she thought about all the happy memories they had together. Josh was Jaydas's safe place, but now she has no longer that. Jayda never told Josh about her getting raped, or her family issues. she just said that her parents were divorced. She loved to be under josh and just in his presence. She never taught Josh would cheat on her, but she was wrong. she forgives him but she will never forget. She knew that it was better to forgive than carry a bitter heart.
Jayda has been going to therapy since she was little. she went because she had social anxiety. she hated big crowds and talking to people. she was afraid that people had the intention to hurt her that's was she only had a few close friends. Jayda was never the type of person that spoke about her feelings only when it came to her best friend Zoe.
new message:
Josh
do you want to meet up?
