ZOE POV:
"Let's go out today," Jaydas sister Jazlyn said as we were sitting on the bed.
Jayda introduced me to her family yesterday and let me tell you they all are so nice and funny. They really make me comfortable. No wonder Jayda doesn't want to leave. I also met Jazlyn friends and they are so nice.
I have been in La for five days now and it's so relaxing. Get away from so much stress with Jalen and my mom.
Jalen has made different Instagram accounts to text me. I want to talk to him and clear the air but I can't stand looking at his face. Knowing he cheated on me for the second time.
"Zoe are you listening" Rachel waved a hand in front of my face. I was in my own thoughts that I didn't even see that Jayda wasn't in the room.
"Huh"
"I asked you something. You want to go out?" She chuckled.
"No I'm not feeling it today I will just stay at the house"
"You sure?" She asked me. I nodded my head and zoned out again.
Maybe it should just forgive Jalen and move on.
I and Jayda were back in the hotel room. I had on my pajamas shorts and a black hoodie. My hair was wrapped in a high ponytail.
Jayda was standing in front of the mirror fixing her hair.
"Does this look good, I want to take pictures today"
"Beautiful" my computer was in front of me. I had a long essay i had to do. I was supposed to do it yesterday but we were out hanging.
"Thank you call me if it's anything" she kissed my cheek before running out the door.
I started to write. My essay was about loving yourself.
Why is it so difficult to love ourselves? Basically, the short answer to this question is that we were raised in a society that didn't teach us about self-love. This may not seem very important to some, but self-love is one of the best things you can do for yourself.
Looking in the mirror, most of us see a lot of different flaws and remember too many past experiences and failings to love ourselves. The less you love yourself, listen to yourself, and understand yourself, the more confused, upset, and frustrated you will be in life. When you begin to love yourself and continue to love yourself more and more each day, things slowly will be a little bit better in every way possible.
While I was writing everything that came to my mind there was a knock on the door. That can't be Jayda because she has her own key card.
I rose from the bed and took my hair out of my ponytail. There wasn't a door hole there so I had to fully open the door.
The person knocked again. I opened the door a little bit and saw that fucking Jalen was Standing there with flowers in his hands.
"What are you doing here," I asked.
"Can we talk, please let me explain?" He said pleading.
"There is nothing to talk about" I tried to close the door again.
"Yes there is, just let me come in" he opened the door and walked in.
Sure just come in. I thought in my head and rolled my eyes. I took a deep breath and calmed myself down.
"You look pretty," he said. He was sitting on my bed.
