BDSM SOCIETY: Judas' Kiss

CHAPTER 7

I mourned so hard. But Zeon didn't leave me. Umaalis lang siya tuwing uuwi at magbibihis. Sometimes he just went home to get his clothes at babalik din agad para damayan ako.

No passing day that I didn't cry for my mother's departure. Each time I left alone in my room, I cried heavily. Unable to accept the reality that my mother had left me.

Hanggang sa nilibing si mommy. Hindi ko iyon matanggap. Sobra akong nasaktan na halos ikamatay ko ang pag-iyak yakap ang kabaong niya.

"Mommy! Don't leave me! Please.... Mom! Wake up!" It was a heavy slap on me that this was really happening. I was indenial but this was the end of it. Of refusing to take the reality. "Mommy! Why are you leaving me?!"

"Maco..." Zeon hugged me to calm me down. "It will be alright soon."

Sa sobrang pag-iyak ko ay nawalan ako ng malay. I just woke up in my bed with an IV on my veins. Zeon's hand was holding mine habang nakayuko sa kama at natutulog. Nang gumalaw ako ay nagising agad siya.

"You're awake. How are you feeling?" He cupped my face with gentle eyes. "You loss weight."

Nanghihina akong ngumiti. "A—" I winced when I couldn't utter a word. Masakit ang lalamunan ko.

"Don't speak. You're dehydrated." Kinuha niya ang tumbler at nilabas ang straw saka pinainom sakin ang laman. My heart sank seeing him. He was stressed and gloomy. Imbes na intindihin niya ang pag-aaral ay nandito siya ngayon, ako ang iniintindi.

Faintly, I smiled and uttered 'I love you'.

Lumapit siya sakin at hinalikan ako sa noo. "I love you more. Gain back your strength, alright."

Tumango lang ako habang may kiming ngiti sa mga labi na tinititigan siya.

Days passed slowly. Gumaling na ako at nakauwi sa bahay ng mga Sandijo. Kahit na wala nang rason upang bumalik dito pero gusto ko pa ring manatili. Mom and I had memories here. I wanted to reminisce. Gusto kong balikan ang lahat bago ako bumalik sa Boston. Dahil hinding-hindi na ako babalik dito. Kahit kailan. I only had few more months to stay and look back to the memories that lingered here.

Una kong pinuntahan ang garden. Mom and I used to do gardening here. Planted plants and flowers. Took care of them. It was used to be our bonding when she's free from work.

"This was our haven..." I smiled faintly and looked at him. "The mother and daughter heart was molded here."

I tried my eyes not to yield a single tear. I always knew that Zeon would be here for me. And, him, worrying over something useless would be the last thing I wanted him to feel.

His phone rang but he didn't answer it. He rejected it twice, I asked him to answer it the third time it rang. Habang may kausap siya sa phone ay tumayo ako at nilapitan ang favorite flower ni mom. The gypsophila. Tinanggalan ko ito ng mga lanta at binungkal ang lupa sa gilid nito dahil matigas na. I stopped doing that when a butterfly in color brown hovered on the flower. Something weightful pinned my chest.

"Babe." Lumingon ako kay Zeon nang tawagin niya ako. "I'm sorry. Something came up sa bahay. Is it okay if—"

"It's okay." I smiled at him to assure I'm fine. "Go ahead," sabi ko na may pagtango. He'd been with me the whole time. And I knew I didn't own his time for me demand about it. He had family to be with.

"I'm sorry. I'll be fast." He kissed my forehead and jogged away. I sighed as I watched him gone.

Nagulat ako nang lumipad sakin ang paru-paro at tumigil sa braso ko. My tears shamelessly loomed on my eyes as I watched the butterfly on my arm. Parang sinasabi nito na okay lang. Na magiging okay ang lahat.