I Will Never Be His Wife

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"Do you Stephen,  take this woman whose hand you now hold, to be your true and wedded wife; and do you solemnly promise before God and these witnesses to LOVE, CHERISH, HONOR AND PROTECT HER: to forsake all others for her sake; to cleave unto her, and her only, until death shall part you?"

"I DO" he answered calmly

"Do you Dahlia, take this man who now holds your hand, to be your true and wedded husband; and do you solemnly promise before God and these witnesses to LOVE, CHERISH, HONOR AND PROTECT HIM, to forsake all others for his sake; to cleave unto him and him only, and him forever until death shall part you?"

"I.... DO" 

I can feel my half sister's piercing eyes glaring at me. I hope she understand that I'm not doing this wedding because I like it. I'm doing this because of pressure.

"Stephen, REPEAT AFTER ME. I, Stephen Alex Dominguez"

"I, Stephen Alex Dominguez"

"take thee, Dahlia Dela Torre to be my wedded wife"

"take thee, Dahlia Dela Torre to be my wedded wife"

"to have and to hold...from this day forward"

"to have and to hold...from this day forward"

"for better or worse . . . for richer, for poorer"

"for better or worse . . . for richer, for poorer"

"in sickness and in health . . . till death do us part"

"in sickness and in health . . . till death do us part" 

He can't even look at me while saying those words. What do I expect? I finished saying my vow shaking. It feels so illegal marrying the man for business purposes. And the fact that I only stole him from someone. How can I escape this part of my life, I'm too weak to even disagree to my parents. Our company's at risk and the only way to save it is to marry Stephen.

I feel bad lying at this church, infront of God. I know we both didn't meant what we said a while ago. We don't love each other and I know we will never love eachother. Mas ramdam ko pa na duty ko ito kaysa kasal. I am the only daughter of Georgia Dela Torre and Dennis Dela Torre so I'm the only option for this marriage. Veline, my half sister, the daughter of my dad from his mistress isn't treated as part of the family. Eventhough I'm not yet ready to have family, I have to do this. 

"Family picture na!" my aunt shouted. Pumwesto kami sa harap ng altar. Aakalain mong hindi namin ito kasal ni Stephen dahil ang layo ng agwat namin, kung hindi lang kami inusog ni Mama ay hindi kami magdidikit. 

Nang magsasayawan na sa reception, nagsitayuan na ang mga tao. Hindi ako sumama maski tumayo man lang. This is my wedding, yes. But do I feel happy? no, it's a big no. 

"Dahlia, come on! Aalis na kami ni Papa mo so dance with your husband for us" aya ni mama. They will leave Philippines for a year. They need to focus on our company at USA dahil mas malala ang bankruptcy doon.

Stephen offered his hand for a dance. Wala akong magawa kaya hinayaan ko na lang. I can feel the awkwardness and I hate it. He can't hold my waist tightly as if he's disgusted.

He pulled me closer to him and whispered to my ears. "Don't expect me to be your husband. Pagsisisihan mo na ako ang pinakasalan mo" that message sent chills to me.

I know, you will never love me. I just hope that I will never love you because if I do? That will be my destruction.