Thing you must understand if you are my friend.
1. I say I love you a lot, this does not mean that I am romantically attracted to you, it means I care about you.
2. If I get you a gift don't even think about getting me anything in return, just say thank you.
3. I try my hardest and most days I fail. Be patient with me, I am trying one day at a time.
4. Most of the time I will forget to take my meds so you can not be disappointed if my answer is no when you ask 'did you take your meds today'.
5. I curse like a sailor. There is no changing that.
6. I'm always up for late night calls and texts, unless I am staring at the ceiling questioning my life.
7. When I need people I become clingy, if I'm clingy I can be annoying. Be nice please, telling me I'm too much hurts me a lot.
8. I'm tired of hurting so much.
9. I sadly am real.
10. Don't try and talk to me when I am typing or reading something, I am not listening.
11. My sister will always come say hi if we're on call, be nice to her or we won't be very good friends.
12. No cursing around my sister.
13. I talk about my dead friends a lot, some say I'm too hung up on the past, I say I'm not letting them be forgotten.
14. Don't take me seriously when I'm angry, when I'm angry I just want people to hurt as much as I am.
15. Sometimes I am one minor mishap away from breaking down, be gentle with me. Most of the time I am as strong as stone and sometimes I am as weak as a glass that already has a chip in it and life can be a bitch ass microwave
16. I play videos games more than I pay attention to school. I'm not sorry about that.
17. If I tell you that I'm fine, telling you to go talk to other people or do other things, I really am not fine and I want you to stay. I want you near me but don't want to be an issue.
18. I know I am an issue.
19. Please don't remind me that I'm an issue.
20. Please know I am trying
20. Please know I am trying
20. Please know I am trying
20. Please know I am trying to stay alive, fighting a battle that half the time I don't even want to fight. I am staying alive because I made a pinky promise.
21. I never break my pinky promises.
22. I am in love with someone else every week
23. I am never going to be the person my mother wants me to be, and I know that's a good thing it just sometimes hurts to think about.
24. I am in love with the moon and the stars, falling more in love with them each night
25. I want you in my life forever, even though it may seem like I won't text or call, or that I am 'too busy'. I'm not. I just forgot that people still like my company.
