Life of Love

THIRD =Twisted Fate=

Once in our life time we never really knew what could ever possibly happen to us. Once we knew were healthy living, yet in just a snap things may go wrong, just like accidents. Life it to short indeed, that's why we live our life to fullest at times, we try to be happy in just a simple way nor in our own ways.

Before i was being hateful and not wishing to be apart nor experience things that was written on a book of novels, on a movie dramas and a television dramas. Which is mostly happening in every relationship in true to life stories, where a man nor a woman been cheated on by their partners for another person. Where most lovers and in relationship always had a fight because of some issues such like being played on and cheated or getting busy onto something and lacking of time. This are some causes of breakups and fights in a realtionship.
Before i was like so hateful of that thought, knowing nor imagining that i could be hurt that much by my person nor my partner, well who does wants that right? Funny if they wanted to be played for, No-one right? But here i am thinking and wondering about such kind of situation. I once wants to be on that kind of situation where i rather prefer to be on a half fight and a small problem with my partner because a someone, than being on a situation of fighting onto life and death. It was more painful that you couldn't really imagine, how you would fight for your partner. It's like you're fighting with the devines, with God right? Its indeed very hard to handle. Its like fight the battles that you dont have a chance of winning. Just like playing a lotto. Chances are atleast 1-2%.

Yes indeed, this is part of our story. I never knew that life would be so much precious that you could be thankful and greatful every morning as you wake up and saying "thank God" that im still breathing and alive. Our relationship was beyound perfect but for me its perfect. We may have a lil fights but still we able to talk to and be at peace later on that always win inspite of troubles nor challenges.

I remember they say that a woman instinct never lies and always accurate. And it does real, cause one day before i had this kind of feeling something wasnt right about us specially to him, that his hiding something and i also learned it to my girl bestfriend since we always talk and try to catch up everything happens to where he ir or what his been doin while his away. Then i remember she told me that day he heard wherein my beloved dance coach and my beloved talk about something saying." Did you already talk to her about it? You should and you really have too." And she said that as she saw them talking seriously that me getting involved in the situation, she immediatly thinks she needs to tell me about it so i could talk to my beloved yet i didn't try to talk to him about it. Cause who am i, im just her very understanding and very patience girlfriend that would wait whenever he wanted to shared those secrets. Cause i dont want to bother him or make him get anxious and be bothersome since i knew that time his doin well and nothing was going on to him. But i wasn't right, that i should have listen to my inner voice saying that i should try talk to him about it. Cause what happened next is a big blow to me that i didnt even imagined it would happen. His that good of hiding his feeling and emotions, or maybe i wasnt really that attentive towards him before.
I just found out weeks before that i didnt get to talk to him for so long and recieve a text coming from him and a confirmation coming from my girl bestfriend that he was been hospitalized because of his serious health problems. I was shock and devastated at that time that i couldnt even think nor say anything at a very first minute. All i could do was get into tears and feelin hurt, so much hurt for him about whats happening to him and to his family. I was like why? Why this is all suddenly happened to us? I thought it was all alright that his good and healthy that his just to busy with his work and on his hobby performing with his crew yet i was wrong. I should have tried to be more strict nor be very clingy girlfriend but i wasn't because it wasn't really me and its all new to me. I was NBSB (No Boyfriend Since Birth) when i got to knew him and found him, so how should i react on it that time right? See how destiny and fate would intervene. Yet im glad that his doin fine now that his now healthy again. He may suffer a lot nor both of us suffer for pains and struggle yet im glad that we both fight. Im also glad that the devines and God hear my prayers for him. They grant my wishes to make him healthy again and live longer.

Though its all in the past and just be memories yet still in doubt and guilt with what happen to us. I just here to journal and tell what part of our life relationship happens that some didnt even understand why i keep on still believing about us. Cause we've been through a lot together, we both fight for each other before. Yet destiny and fate wasn't in our blessing towards our path in this time To many things happened an unexpected change of turns of our paths yet still in the end i believe and we end up winning together.