Life of Love

Fourth =Jealousy=

Once in our life we felt Jealousy. And that's the feeling we doesnt want to feel towards others right?. Just like its one of our weakness yet we cannot help it nor pretend not to felt it knowing we had this kind of feelings and emotions towards someone. We cannot easily hide it, it always be shown. It does painful and make us crazy.
Well jealousy starts when we felt being scared nor afraid to be left behind by someone we look up to. Being jealous to someone who might he nor she can be a perfect fit to your someone, to your lover. Yet we cannot denay sometimes were getting eaten by our own insecurities then jealousy. Its kinda bad yet its good. Bad cause sometimes jealousy can lead to an unreasonable nor unfair actions and it can lead us to hurt someone intentionally very bad. Yet Good cause jealousy can be away to learn and know yourself and real feelings to someone, its like a test on how important nor how deep your feelings is to someone.

Well our relationship rather our love story will never be complete if there's no fights and jealousy involved, its always part of relationship right? Then here is some of our jealousy stories. Once i had this doubt before a big doubt about his real feelings towards me cause as i tell our stories its kinda cliche were just started like total strangers and just got to know more by text messages and exchange of written letters. I wasn't even see him that much before that's why im in doubt by his words and actions, though im feeling it yet im on denial knowing im being jealous with my girl bestfriend whose the one, that introduced me to him. I got jealous because they always been together since my best friend become friends of them and she became one of his dance crew members and she always on their house. As his lover and a girlfriend its ok to be jealous sometimes right? But yet i was really eaten by insecurities before cause my girl best friend is beautiful that i my self has a crush on her and she's not hard to love nor like. And i knew when i ask him of did he ever like my bestfriend before and he admit yes but he also said "yeah i like her before cause shes cool and pretty yet i know who i love most and that's you and liking just crush is nothing compare to the love that i had for you". That time he said it i just cried and let my insecurities shove in. And as much im confused with my emotions that time, that it wasnt really serious that i wasnt really love him, yet my bad cause that night i could definitely say i does love him, that i started falling for him deeper cause he knew i was tryin to push him away from me and push him towards my girl bestfriend before cause i know they much good together. But to my surprised he didn't even bother to stay away from me and let me stop our relationship because of my girlbestfriend he even distance him self to her just for me to be at ease. Though i understand everything his doin and he understand me too and i also felt how sincere he is and i could see that nothings wrong about him and my bestfriend so i end up forgetting things and let myself not in doubt on his love that i was so thankful and greatful that no matter fights we made before he still stand for us and he never give up on us specially to me. He make sure, to make me feel his love to me. I was actually say sorry to my girl bestfriend before and also to my beloved onto the way i acted and jealous before and they do understand and let our friendship be intact together.
Sometimes he gets jealous too. Towards those mans who got to be link on my name even he got jealous too withone of his bestfriend before maybe till now his been jealous though. Either way but anyways, i just wanna say that jealousy is fine but not to much, that it can ruined everything. We sometimes need to understand things before we acted and try to balance things first and dont forget to listen to what our heart says cause its all that matters and its important for us to hear it clearly so we can do more better, with no doubt and guilt only love and in peace.

Love will always wins at the end, they say. And it was truth indeed. Cause no matter how huge that fight is, still we end up getting together again and tryin to resolve it for love and care for each other.