RUN SANTOS!! ( Spooky x Reader)

8)I Need You...

(Mention of self harm and starving)

I passed out from blood loss. I mean I had cut myself at least 20 times. While I was out George wrapped my arm to stop the blood. He also got my tio and they took me to the hospital.

Flashback

It was like 3am. I couldn't sleep and had to get up in 2 hours for school anyway. I haven't been eating. I mean I might have a granola bar once a while. By that I mean once every couple days. I didn't want to die or anything, I just wanted to lose weight. I felt fat. I gained weight when I went off to camp. Now I need to lose it and I'm already in sports and stuff. So I'm not eating anymore. I look ugly. I hate everything about myself but what am I going to do about it? I'm not getting plastic surgery. But I can control my weight so that's what I'm doing. My dad didn't come home last night. I don't know when he'll be here. He normally gets back before I have school so it should be soon. I decided to go to the bathroom and get ready. I'm in the shower and I grab my razor to shave. Then without even thinking I grab the blade. I push it down on my thigh so I can hide it better. I already have scars on my wrist. My dad always looks to see if there are fresh ones. I only cut because I know I'm not good enough. I'm ugly, my mom hates me, and I'm a part of a gang that my dad doesn't want me to be a part of. I usually only do 2 or 3 but I did 7 without even thinking. I heard the front door open and I knew my dad was home because he made up a knock he did on the wall. He made it so he doesn't pull a gun on me if I come in late. I quickly replaced the blade and washed all the blood away. I hopped out of the shower. I wrapped myself in a towel. "Princesa! I'm home hija." He probably saw I wasn't asleep. "Hola padre. I'm in a towel." I didn't know if he brought people he normally doesn't unless he has to 'talk' to them. "That's fine princesa. It's just me." He knew I didn't like people seeing my body. "Okay I'm going to get dressed." I walked past him. I pulled my towel up a little higher on the way. "Stop." I was confused. I saw his eyes looking at my thigh and I saw the pain all over his face. He hated that I cut but he couldn't find a way to have me stop. He thought I was done when I stopped cutting my wrist. "(Y/N) why? That's not good princesa." I knew he was upset he never used my name, it was always little nicknames. I hated that I did that to him. I hated the pain in his eyes. His eyes were glossy from tears forming. I knew I did that to him and it only made me want to do it more. Tears immediately started to slide down my cheeks. "I'm so sorry dad. I-....I just......I couldn't sleep. Then-.....I saw.....I saw the blade. Before.....before I knew it......I was doing it." I was in a full crying fit. He walked over and hugged me. I cried into his shoulder. By the time I pulled away his shirt was a different shade of blue. He pulled me to my room and put me in bed. I had 2 hours before school so he let me sleep for an hour. He would have let me sleep all day but I wanted to go to school.

End of flashback

My eyes fluttered open and I was staring at the white ceiling. I looked around realizing I was in the hospital then the memories came flooding back. I looked at my arm it was completely wrapped. My hand was in a cast. I saw silhouettes outside my room through the small window on the door. I could hear voices but not make out what they were saying. I started to sit up. The door opened and some nurse came in. "Hi nice to see your awake. I'm nurse Mills. But please call me Claire." She was around 5'5 dark brown almost black hair. It was short, almost shaved.

"Hi." I hate hospitals so I didn't want to be here. "How are you doing sweetheart?" She was checking the iv in my arm and the monitors. "I'm fine." I looked down at my arm again. I felt tears pricking my eyes. "Help me please." Your voice was quieter than a whisper. She looked at you with pure concern. "What's wrong?" She was just as quiet as me. "They kidnapped me. Please. Help me." She had tears in her eyes. She quickly wiped her eyes and nodded her head. She left the room and they came in.

My uncle was angry and George was sad and confused. He never knew about it before my dad only told tio. He was mad cause I made a promise to him to stop.....and I did until now. But it was his fault he kidnapped me and put me in that position. "What the hell is wrong with you? You made me a promise!" I heard anger in his voice but it was worrying now filling his eyes. "And I kept that promise until you kidnapped me!!" I didn't mean to say it but all of my emotions were pent up and it came out. "You kidnapped me and now I have to be leader to a stupid gang! You took me from my family! So ya screw your promise and screw you!!" He didn't say a word and I was just breathing heavily. George just came and hugged me. The tears that once sat in my eyes had fallen. The door slowly creeped open and George pulled away. Nurse Mills came in and handed me some pain meds and water. She nodded her head and I knew she had called the police. I smiled and downed the pills. She left the room. Tio was now sitting with his head in his hands. George sat on the edge of my bed with a hand on my leg for support.

Then.....

AUTHORS NOTE

I know I mean okay sorry. Also I'm sorry I haven't posted but I'm trying. I have a state reading test today then a game later on. So I'll try to post another for missing some days. But don't hold me to it. Thanks for reading. Also I'm making each chapter at least 1000 words.

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