Open to possibilities pt. 2

Chapter 57

Amelia POV

"Hey you...are you hungry?" I ask Maya just to receive two giant blue eyes staring back at me.
It's been 3 days since we left the hospital, Carina wanted to keep me under observation a little longer because of my medical history. This postpartum is giving me a hard time though: my super easy pregnancy got repaid with the worst postpartum ever! My body hurts, I'm constantly tired and it's not because of my daughter cause she is a true delight, she sleeps almost through the night and she doesn't fuss more than necessary.
Maya is just the cutest baby on this planet, she is so tiny that she wears preemie clothes. She has super dark hair, long lashes and adorable pink cheeks
"I really want to eat you" I tell her and she giggles back at me
"How are my ladies doing?" Link asks entering the master bedroom
"We are very good, right Maya?" I answer patting her back
"Is mom still super sore?" He asks kindly sitting next to me
"Super super sore...but now it's just my back and you know..." I gesture around my lower abdomen
"Sorry about it,babe... did you rest a bit?" He asks me
"Yeah,don't worry...all I'm doing these days is staying in bed. Bella and Leo are helping me a lot" I say simply- and that's true, while Link is at the hospital Bella keeps her siblings entertained which is a thing that I really appreciate these days.
"We have a great support team,huh?!" He says smiling
"We literally made our great support team" I say laughing

Remember when I told that little Maya is a cute adorable angel who doesn't wake up at night? Yeah? Well, I lied. There is just one way to make her fall asleep: night city tour with the car, with the music loud and her dad singing.
"Okay Maya...let's go!" Link says lifting her up from her crib
"Can I come too? I need to get out of this house for a few minutes" I ask expectantly
"Yay, mom is coming with us" he celebrates taking my hand to help me "easy,Amelia...easy"
He probably saw my discomfort because he puts his arm around my back
"Better this way?" He asks me
"Thank you" I whisper wincing in pain with every step
"Are you sure you want to do this? You are in pain, Amelia"
"I'm fine plus we don't spend much time alone these days so...I can take the pain" I say taking his hand
"LEO?" Link calls down the stairs
"Time for the night tour?" He asks
"Yeah, mom is coming too...can you keep an eye on the others?"
"Sure...everyone is sleeping or playing or studying! I have everything under control...go" Leo says still watching the TV
"Leo...honey, please listen to your dad" I say to him
"I'm listening...everyone is fine!" He says rolling his eyes
"Don't answer to your mother like this" Link warns him
"Link it's fine, let's go" I say squeezing his arm "we are all very tired"

Sitting here, in the passenger seats, in the middle of the night in a already sleeping Seattle, I find myself staring at the view: city lights in the distance, peace and no people around, my handsome husband next to me, very focused on the road because he has to "protect his precious cargo" as he calls us, my adorable baby already snoring softly in the back seat.
Link looks so beautiful with his strong hands holding firmly the steering wheel,his blue eyes almost transparent from the reflection of the lights around us, his mouth half smiling humming along a love song playing on the radio.
"What's with the staring?" He asks me looking at me smiling
"I love you" I whisper dreamily just to get repaid with his flashing white smile
" I love you too" He says putting his hand on my leg
"No, I mean...I really love you" I say insisting "and I'm so grateful for everything we have done together...look at us, in the middle of the night, close to our fifties, with a new baby to take care of...it's crazy"
"It truly is" he says sweetly "it truly is"
"Why are you stopping the car? Are you crazy?! SHE'LL WAKE UP!" I scream in a whisper
"Trust me, she is already out as a light" he says looking at the back seat  "do you remember where we are?" He asks me
"How could I forget?" I say laughing. We are on the hill where we used to go when I was pregnant with Bella in the morning before going to work because the fresh air was the only thing able to stop my nausea "how many time we laid on the grass looking at the sunrise while waiting for our Bella" I say adoringly "the first time I felt like I was doing something right in my life...the first time I understood that I wasn't alone" I say wiping away a few tears. In the meantime, he put himself behind me circling my waist with his arms
"And that was the first time that I felt I found the woman of my life" he says kissing my hair "I'm sorry that I went camping while you were giving birth" he says
"I think that at some point I told Bella to write a text saying you would have never seen my vagina again!" I chuckle
"Yeah...Bella sent me those exact words" he laughs
"But you made it there in time so...that's okay" I say "I was mad because I wanted you there for the first normal birth of our parenting career"
"Every time, I felt as the first time...it's incredible" he says "every time I feel overwhelmed by the thought of us making a perfect human out of our love"
"Someone is being cheesy" I mock him "but yeah...it's mesmerizing. And this time feels even more miraculous...I mean, what were the chances of us conceiving a baby at our age?"
"Hot sex?" He suggest smirking
"Shut up!" I say laughing "is the princess still asleep?" I ask turning my attention to the sleeping baby in the car
"Sound asleep" he says in a victorious tone "let's go home"
"Yeah, let's go" I suggest sitting slowly on the passenger seat

Link POV
On our way home, Amelia fell asleep too. She is so tired because she keeps taking care of everyone despite still recovering from the birth.
Entering the house, I firstly make my way to the nursery to put Maya in her crib and then, I come back to get Amelia. She is super thin so it's not difficult to carry her around. Passing by Bella's room, my daughter jumps on her feet "what happened?"
"Ssssssh, she fell asleep in the car" I whisper to her "go to sleep,honey"
"Am I overreacting right?" She asks me
"You are your mother's daughter" I wink at her

Laying her down on the bed and putting the sheets over her body, I stop myself to contemplate her.
My wife. She is my wife.
Her lips are softly open to let out a quiet snoring, her dark hair is resting on the pillow in a messy dance. Her skin is pale but her cheeks are a soft cherry red- when she was little, Bella thought her mother was Snow White...to be fair, there is a good similarity though. I love when she smiles during her sleep, she looks so peaceful and free. Amelia has always been the trooper of the house, taking care of everyone, it's our turn to take care of her.
"Dad?" Bella stops my daydreaming with a whisper
"Yeah?"
"Can we talk?"
"About?" I ask inviting her on the bed
"Mom"
"What's wrong with mom?" I ask her
"Nothing is wrong with her but I want to be useful for her! Look how exhausted she looks!" She says dramatically
"She just had a baby" I say
"Why she keeps refusing epidurals? She wouldn't ended up like that I guess" My daughter says dramatically
"Because of her history. She doesn't want anything to numb the pain because she is afraid of liking the feeling again and you know...relapse"
"Dad, really an epidural can make someone relapse?"
"In some cases, yes... but your mom wanted to feel it anyways, she says it's part of the experience. My hands think differently though" I laugh
"Right?! So it wasn't just me who felt a deadly grip around my hand?"
"No, definitely not. When you were born, my hands had signs of her nails here and there" I laugh at the thought "but...it was a small price to pay for what she was doing"
"I know!!" She says and after a few minutes of silence, she adds "What will happen when Leo and I will be off to college?"
"She will cry for days and then she will understand that you are growing up and the we can't stop that from happening" I answer
"Is it possible touching love? Because I really felt that on my skin when Maya was born...she was loving her so intensively that I don't know..."
"It's definitely possible" I answer nodding "she is this little tiny orb full of love"
"She hated you when you where in the middle of the woods and she was about to give birth" she laughs
"I know" I chuckle "and I can't forgive myself because I've almost missed that"
"You shouldn't feel guilty, dad...I don't know how much she remembers of what happened before Maya's arrival" she answers "she insulted you pretty heavily but she made me promise of not telling you what she said"
"I bet"
"How will we survive alone? We are so used to this house: the cries, the drama, the laughters, the warmth...I'm going to miss all of this"
"Well, we'll feel that too because a part of all that noise and love will be out of here" I say hugging her "you've grown up so fast...it seems like yesterday that you were as tiny as Maya, babe"
"It doesn't help that we both really look alike" she says
"Yeah...it's crazy right? You were my first born, my first biggest love and she will be the last one who will make me experience that feeling" I say sighing "I love you, all of you, more than life itself" I say more to myself holding my daughter close to my chest.