Open to possibilities pt. 2

Chapter 39

Amelia POV
I'm in my bed for the first time in almost 28 days,I'm so tired I could pass out. Linc is next to me reading about sperimental treatment for Stacey,just in case.
"Link,don't" I tell him
"I need to know" he answers
"I've chosen to be just a mother,not a doctor for once. I'm letting myself feel everything"
"Yeah,baby...I know and you are doing an amazing job with her" he says stroking my cheeks.
All of a sudden,we hear knocks on the door "mom?" Alex calls me
"Come in,darling" I tell him and when he opens the door I see Arielle as well standing next to him "what's happening,babies?" I say sitting on the edge of the bed
"We were wondering if..." he starts
"If we could sleep here tonight" Arielle completes the sentence
"Because we miss you" Alex concludes.
They melt my heart with those puppy eyes
"You know what? Come here to mama" I say to them holding up the covers for them. They jump in bed in one second and snuggle close to me: Arielle hugging me like a mini koala on my back and Alex close to my chest. Needless to say that I feel my heart bursting with love for these two "I love you babies" I whisper.
"Mom?"
"Can you tell us a story?" Arielle asks me
"What story do you want to hear?" I ask them
"Our story" Alex says
"Your story? Okay...10 years ago,mom and dad just got married and to be honest mom knew already about you but she wanted to keep it a secret for a while. You were a surprise we didn't planned but...we loved you from the first minute. The night I told dad dad you were two, he passed out...literally. I've never laughed so much in my life" I say laughing remembering that moment "you were two little humans growing inside of me and it was...different from the first time. I've never had so much fun than I did during those nine months! I operated a lot, we made memories, we planned things for the future and when you decided it was the right time to come I was in the OR doing magics on a soldier's brain. It was difficult and more painful than what I remembered but...when you were born,I felt complete" and Link who is in bed with us starts
"Buuut...your mom,who is a woman full of surprises, decided to bleed a little too much so auntie Arizona had to intervene. I spent two days with you guys waiting for your mom to wake up. You were so tiny,adorable and beautiful that I couldn't wrap my head around it. When mom woke up, you spent days hugged to her."
"Did we love her like we do now?"
"Oh yeah,totally" he answers "you were her koalas,as she called you"
"I love you,babies....and I'm sorry if I'm not here,with you. I know I'm missing a lot,I hate not being at your football matches and I hate not seeing you dance,my little ballerina" I say with tears "I want this nightmare to be over"
"Mom...you will see us playing and dancing when Stacey will be better. She has to come first for all us now" Arielle says next to my ear while playing with my hair...she has always had a thing for my hair since she was little.
"Mom?"
"Tell me,Bubu" I answer to Alex
"Are you happy about Leo's baby?"
"Of course I am!"
"Aren't you a little mad at him?"
"Well...I was at first but with everything that is going on with Stacey,this new life can be a ray of sun in our lives"
"I can't wait to meet her" Arielle tells me "a new girl in this house,yay for us"
Kissing her hair I whisper "okay,time to sleep,Angels"
"Goodnight,mommy" they say together.

This morning I've been woken up by Tommy calling me "MAMA!!" At the top of his tiny lungs
"Hello,big boy" I greet him,holding him up "are happy to see me?"
"Yesh,mama" he answers
"What do you want for breakfast?" I ask softly
"Mmmmmh" he answers pointing his finger on his chin "PA...KES!"
"Pancakes?"
"Yesh" he celebrates
"Okay,mom can do it,let's go!" I say hopping down the stairs but as I come into the kitchen, I see my stunning husband with my tiny humans around the table,covered in delicious food
"Happy Mother's Day,my love" Atticus says and my kids are running to hug me
"Thank you" I'm so moved. I was so busy worrying for my daughter that I forgot about this day "and...happy Mother's Day to you,Shay" I say smiling
"Oh,thank you Mimi" she kisses me on my cheek
"We made you this...you can take it to the hospital with you so you won't feel alone" they explain showing me a huge picture of us.
"What if I put this on Stacey's wardrobe at the hospital so she will feel less lonely too?"
"Brilliant idea,mom" Leo agrees.
"Okay guys,let's eat! Then we will take mom to the hospital" Link says.

"Amelia?" Link calls me into our bedroom
"Tell me" I say while putting my jeans on
"Come here" he pats on the bed next to him
"What?" I ask with expectation
"There is a little thing I bought for you...to thank you,for being the amazing mother you are" he says giving me a red box "come on,open it"
"Link...this is...." I say covering my mouth with my hand. There it is, a simple necklace with the initials of our children "I love you" I whisper to him
"Do you want to put this on?" He asks stroking my cheek
"I would love to" I say holding up my hair for him
"There you go"
"Thank you" I say looking him in the eyes.
We remained in silence for a few minutes and then he takes my face between his palms "I wish I could take your sadness away"
"I wish that too" I sigh feeling tears pooling into my eyes
"I wish I could make you smile,for real, once again...because it's breaking my heart seeing you this...empty"
"I will be fine,honey...we will be fine" I try to reassure him
"She will be fine" he concludes and I don't know but those words make my wall fall down as I start crying
"It's beautiful and...painful,being a mother. No matter what will happen in our life but the way I love them...it hurts me. I love them so much that my heart could explode and kill me in the process. I just want this to be over...I want my kid back"
"I know...I feel that too" he whispers kindly "we made them"
"We made them" I whisper letting him hug me.

As I enter Stacey's room, I see my two beautiful daughters on the bed,with big smiles, holding a bouquet of flowers and a beautiful picture
"Look mama!! We made this for you" Stacey says "do you like it?"
"Oh baby,I love it...but I love you more" I say kissing her forehead letting her snuggle between my arms
"Happy Mother's Day,mom" Bella says sweetly
"Have you slept a bit tonight?" I ask her
"She had a very good night! We slept together in her bed" she smiles "she has woken up twice but when she realized that she wasn't alone,she came back to sleep in a few minutes"
"Thank God" I say relived "you look good with that haircut" I tell her and she flashes me a huge smile.
Stacey fell asleep on my chest so I have the chance to chat a bit with my Bella "so...how are you?" I ask her
"Good! I'm still a little worried about her but...I'm good. Plus,I have broken up with Jameson" she announces
"What?! Why??" I ask
"Well...I told him that my family has to come first now and he said he was not getting the point. He is not the right one for me,mom. Maybe you are right,I'm still too young for this" she simply answers
"Honey,going out with someone is about...sacrifice,sometimes" I suggest
"You and dad are not sacrificing anything and you work pretty well!"
"Oh darling, we spent 14 years sacrificing things! Dad got his dream job when I was pregnant with you. He said no because he wanted to be there to raise you. I got an offer as a teacher in Harvard when I was expecting Tommy and I said no, because that would have meant days away from my family. Loving someone is putting that person upon yourself" I say stroking her cheek
"Okay,I've just realized that I'm going to be alone forever" she laughs
"No way,baby...when sacrificing things won't bother you at all, then you'll know that that person is the right one for you"
"Really?" She asks me "so you don't mind saying no to kick ass jobs for us or for dad?"
"Really...I would die for you or for your dad,literally" I say sweetly. That is true,I would die for them.