Love Is Bad.

- Chapter 15 -

* FLASH BACK *

I was telling Wendy & Emma that I fought with Aaron and suddenly, I received a message from...... Aaron.
* END OF FLASH BACK *

I didn't read the message quickly since I was too shocked not believing my eyes.

because to be honest, I didn't think that he'll ever send a message to me after what happened yesterday. I admit it: I was the wrong one and made him angry because of my cold feelings.

I read the message and it said:
"I'm sorry if I screamed at you yesterday or if I made you angry but I swear, I love you and you just keep on ignoring me"

I kept thinking about an answer and decided to just make it funny since I'm not really mad at him because I was also wrong to talk to him like that:
"Oh.. it's okay. and did you scream? because I didn't hear you! ha, jk :) btw, I didn't ignore you ._. "

seconds later, he answered:
"well, I'm sorry. and I swear, I didn't sleep yesterday after we fought."

I read his text in 'Awh'

Damn, he really made my day.
"Duh, it's okay... stop it or I'm the one who won't sleep today :P "
(I'M SO FUNNY, I KNOW!!!)
"hahah Je T'aime, Daisy"

he said in French (it means I love you in case you don't know) I can tell I was already blushing... but OMG at least I made him laugh !!! (YAY ME!)
"hold on, I don't speak French"  was all what I said jokingly.
"hahah I only speak French though" he answered after few minutes.

by that time, I was wearing my clothes to go to my Uncle's house.
"we're not the same then" I said while doing my hair.

I didn't wait for his answer. instead, I put my earrings on and was finally ready to go out with my Mum & brothers. we quickly took the car and went there. (my Uncle's house Is kinda far from ours)

when I arrived, I didn't find my cousin since she had to study all day (college sh*t)

I turned my phone on to find Aaron answer.
"you know better"
"oh yeah" I simply said.
"of course"

we ate lunch together then went out to the mall with my uncle's wife. I let my phone at home because it had no battery and after about 1 hour, we finished our shopping. (I only bought a new school bag, though) I checked my messages to find an unexpected text from Aaron saying "Best Daisy in the world"

I laughed at his weirdness and finally, went back home. I was really tired and felt so sick without any freaking reason.

I was now texting Faye & Emma but suddenly, I sent a text to Aaron by mistake:
"omg, I really regret going out :""(

oh, sorry, sent the text by mistake"

"it's fine" was all what he answered.

*SATURDAY: Valentine's Day*

it was Valentine's day. that day I hate. the day I remember few people I used to love but didn't appreciate it. the people that broke my heart into peaces. I'm still left broken. I still don't trust lots of boys like Aaron because of my thoughts. my thoughts that keep on telling me that every boy is lying. because Love is simply Bad.

when I woke up, the first person that I texted was the first person that came to my mind which was Aaron.

we kept talking and talking until he told me about the "dating" thing. I took a deep breath and I didn't realize I was finally planning on telling him the truth. I was finally gonna tell him that i like him... :
"Oh Aaron! what I'm gonna tell you now are things I had wanted to tell you before for a long time but I just couldn't. I really like you and I got no problem with you. but the reason I didn't tell you before was because I'm that kind of people that would think billion times before taking decisions and stuff and.. what can I say more? I'm just too stupid, i know."
"you're not stupid, babe. you are my life. my everything, i love you." he answered. I was now smiling at his sweet words. then, I said:
"nope, I am. but thanks after all"

"Daisy, stop being crazy. ok, can't you just tell me why you're stupid?"

"not all questions got answers :) " I simply answered. and i really meant it because it's the truth. i just think I'm stupid and I have no clue why.

"I swear, Daisy! if you'll say that again I'll end up killing my self, I swear. stop it, please."  he said...

the sweet words of his. the way he looks at me. his cute texts. HIM.

all what he does would just make me ..... Like him. I didn't expect my self to tell him "I Love You Too" that day. I just DIDN'T.

we were just... too different! there is no way we could be together. I don't even like bad boys. they're annoying and they only play with girls feelings like a doll. they think Love is a toy or let's say they think the girl is a toy? yeah, I had never expected my self to be officially Aaron's girlfriend. WAIT, am I dreaming? I feel like I wasn't there when I told him about my feelings. I still can't believe this...

I was now laying on bed in my bedroom alone. I could hear my family watching tv but I didn't care. i was just texting Aaron. Damn, his cute texts can make my day easily. it's true that I was really sick. and I was also tired. tired from thinking. but i actually didn't care too...

all what I was thinking about is how I'm gonna go to school on Monday for the first time as Aaron's girlfriend. I was excited to see him. i really miss him but i was also nervous. what if he'll change his mind after he'll get to know me better? I know I'm really calm when I'm around boys I like.. I don't talk much and you can read the uncomfortable look in my eyes easily. I would be just awkward and I'd forget how to talk. however, I need a boy who can always make a conversation with me without making it awkward because romantic moments really make me.... I don't know? just shy, awkward, ...

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the week had passed quickly and it wasn't that perfect since I was really sick. I didn't go to school on Tuesday and Wednesday too. Aaron had been telling me that he missed me a lot and I really did too. but... when he asked for my number, I paused and didn't give it to him. I don't know why but I just didn't. YEAH, I was dying to have his number and stuff but when he asked for it, I was totally in a bad mood that's why I kinda hurt him without releasing it. he really felt bad and I could understand it because I knew my words were mean to him. he's my boyfriend after all and I shouldn't do that to him. however, he pretended to be okay with it and just kept talking to me but I'm the one who was feeling bad for him. because let's be honest!! after I dated him, I felt nothing. I didn't feel the way I felt before for my first love. my heart didn't beat hard when I see him. I don't why. I don't even feel anything when he says "I love you". and you know what makes me confused? he had never held my hand before.

but I didn't tell him that. instead, I just did few rude things to him like ignoring or... and he felt it. he felt that I didn't love him and that I didn't want to stay with him for a long time but he was wrong because I'd really like to be with him and my best friends or him and his friends or just me and him. BUT I don't like it when we're talking at school and I'd see lots of boys coming to talk to him. I'd just feel awkward. especially if the boys are few people I really don't really like to talk to...

and I just feel like he gets a little bit nervous when I'm around and would just look away and won't even make a good conversation with me which makes me feel uncomfortable with these awkward silences we have when we're together.

and today, it was Friday. I was dating Aaron for 6 days now and ... we fought today. he said he really got hurt because I didn't give him my number and all....

I didn't even say anything. I just answered with "Ok." ending the conversation and walking away. I don't know why I'm that bad. I'm just not good enough because I left a boy who truly loved me and everyone wish to be in my place. I lost him and it was all my fault. I'm really feeling bad now even though I'm sure I don't love him. I just like him and... my mind is just messed up at the moment. I can't think of anything.... I was about to apologize but something stopped me, I don't know what it was....

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So, guys!! that was all Chapter 15 :D
WHAT DO YOU THINK??? yay, I finally dated Aaron!!! but do you think he'll get over me this time?
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- Daisy -