Love Is Bad.

- Chapter 18 - FINAL

Warning: YOU MAY NOT LIKE THE END SO, PLEASE, DON'T JUDGE :)

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From the title of this story "Love Is Bad" , you may understand what i think about love.. such a bad thing. something i never believed in in first place..

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you may be wondering about what happened between Aaron and I, right?

i'm writing this chapter after almost a year and as i said before, this book talks about my personal experience. so, please, don't judge.

anyways, here it is:

- 1 year later -

A year had already passed.. it passed so fast, though. i still can't believe this.

After i broke up with Aaron, i tried my best to move on fast.. i gotta admit that forgetting about him wasn't that easy but i don't really regret breaking up with him. i totally don't.

i really felt guilty at first. i thought he was a great person in the beginning but then, again, you can never trust people. he was like everyone else. he had been lying to me the whole time and he never actually loved me. he just wanted to use me, i guess. such a jerk :)

it makes me sad to even think about it.. : i will never find someone who truly loves me.

but i learned the lesson: i'll never follow my heart ever again.

i really thought Aaron was different but the truth always comes out in the end.. i'm just glad it did before i make any other mistake.

everything happens for a reason and i believe in what my destiny is hiding for me..

After our break up, Aaron tried several times to make it up again but i refused every time and pushed him away. i won't say lots of details about the reason i stopped talking to him for a long period but i found out that he had been always cheating on me since we were dating and he even lied to me about his feelings which i think is enough for me to block him out of my life, right? he still till now doesn't know that i knew everything he was hiding from me.. but i don't care. in fact, he didn't even pull out his act after our break up and instead, he lied even more and more while i was just listening or let's say ignoring because i knew the truth and nothing can change the truth.. even his sweet words..

i moved on faster than i thought, though.. and here i am, one year later, completely fine. living my "high school life" peacefully (not really peacefully, haha! SCHOOL SUCKS) i don't study at the same school as Aaron anymore. which it's much better. but in case you're wondering about our relationship right now, we're okay. not really friends but not enemies or strangers either. we don't talk anymore on Facebook or anything like before but we still do talk when we meet. i even saw him on my first day at school and we talked. it seems awkward for me to have a real conversation with him but i don't mind that. things change, i guess. that's life. and things just don't end the way we want it to...

Aaron has a girlfriend right now. he seems really happy with her and i'm totally happy for him too. i may have not told him or anyone but i really am happy for him. i just hope that he won't cheat or lie ever again even though i feel like it's hard because he's just Aaron.. however, people change and maybe, he will too but in a better way this time.

And then, there's me..... well, this year, lots of things have changed. and i did too.

i changed my school too and i got to be friends with new people.. i'm much happier at the moment and i even started studying harder to get better grades this year.. i'm working so hard to learn from my mistakes and i'm actually feeling a little bit better about myself and OF COURSE, i have a new crush..

Okay, this thing is totally different because we don't even talk (I'M WEIRD, I KNOW) anyways, his name's 'Henry' he has black hair like mine and hazel eyes and he's just REALLY CUTE. he's older than me and we never actually talked. in fact, i started liking him the day we had a really long eye contact for the first time.. (I KNOW I SOUND LIKE A LITTLE IDIOT HAHA)

What makes this boy different is the fact that he'll never take one step towards me and try to talk to me and to be honest, i feel like i barely get noticed by him anyway even though, i can see him staring at me the whole time but then it hits me again.. "he's probably looking at me thinking *who's that idiot?* "

Call me 'stupid' or 'insecure' or whatever you want but that's just the first thing i think of when he looks at me. however, that's better than getting my hopes up for no damn reason, right?

anyways, this time, i won't take things fast / easily or fall hard for any guy. all what i'm caring about is my education and MY FUTURE.... and my best friends, i really miss them and i hope i'll see them soon..

2015 wasn't a good year for me. in fact, it was one of the worst years ever but.. I hope that 2016 will be a better year for me and for all of you too !!!

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Anyways, guys !! this is the end :/

i'm so sorry if you didn't like the ending but as i said before, this book is taken from a true personal experience and i just can't change anything about it so, please, don't judge.

i'm not perfect and i make mistakes. maybe, i took some bad decisions but that's just something normal.

we all make mistakes and what matters the most is learning from them :)

THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO READ THE STORY <3

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if you ever wanna talk, i'll be always there.

and it's actually Christmas right now so, MERRY CHRISTMAS *o*

and also, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ... LOUIS TOMLINSON, aka my crush *_*

BYEEE ! :D

- Daisy -

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