Not A Lover

18

Devyn Shadows

It has been a week since I last talked to Draco Malfoy. A week since the boy that I had hope for had trashed my heart making me incapable of letting anyone understand that I ruined anything decent that comes my way, leaving me more and more broken each time.I now understood that I was no longer wanted. Maybe this was the universe telling me that I don't deserve to be here, that I should leave and never turn back.

I have never been so grateful to have a friend like Fred. As of now he has been the only reason why I get out of bed in the morning. Between him and Pansy they have been taking shifts to come over to my room to bring me food. Occasionally I would go down to the great hall to snatch a cookie or two.

Today was my first day back in a week. The first day that I would get out of bed and go to class, to face the monster that awaited me. You could say that the butterflies in my stomach made my whole body feel bubbly. Part of me was excited to go back, just so I could show Draco that he couldn't get to me, and that I was stronger than he thought I was.

I threw on a sweater and a skirt so I would look somewhat presentable. Along with my outfit I put my hair up in a messy bun with my glasses.

After putting on a thin layer of mascara and lip gloss, I wait at the door for Fred to pick me up.

I was finally in the great hall side by side with Fred at the Gryffindor table. When I walked into the hall everyone's eyes turned to look at me, they all looked surprised to see me there since I had been absent for a week.

Everyone in Gryffindor was far too nice to me. Each time I said something they would all give me their undivided attention making me feel wanted. Hermione even offered to help me with all the homework that I missed out on and Ron gave me homemade cookies that his Mum made him over the weekend. Sitting there with everyone made me smile the most that I have in a long time. I was slowly starting to open up to new friends, and was excited to hang around them more often.

After a long awaited chat with my new friends I quickly walked to my first class, hoping to avoid a particular blonde boy. As I walked with my head down, I enter the classroom and took a seat in the back, so I could avoid being called on.

One by one multiple student filed into the classroom filling the seats. I could feel the chair next to me shift, so I look up to see who would be my partner for the day, but instead I came face to face with a girl that had brown hair that held a smirk on her face.

"Nice to see your back from the dead" she laughed, making my face turn red. The once talkative students where now quiet facing the back of the classroom, awaiting what would come next.

"Shut up Astoria"

She looks at me in shock and then returns back to her once smug look as she gets up from the chair and takes a seat next to the blonde boy across the room. She looks at Draco and then looks back at me and raises her eyebrows. "At least I have him" she declares loudly while pointing at Draco, making my blood boil. The whole classroom was still silent as if they where waiting on my response.

"Well at least I don't fuck everyone's filthy seconds" I say making her scowl.

I calmly made my way to the door of the classroom, I could feel the anger radiating off of Astoria from across the room making me more tempted to tick her off.

"By the way he has a STD" I say loudly making sure the whole classroom could hear. I watch as Astorias eyes turn wide as she looks at Draco right in the eye and slaps him. She quickly runs out of the room crying, leaving Draco in complete embarrassment. I stifle a laugh and exited the commotion of the classroom.

After I got out of the main corridors I broke down against the stone wall. I could feel all of my emotions hitting me like a bus, and there was no way for me to stop them. Seeing Draco with Astoria made me want to die. I could no longer take the feeling of wanting someone that you couldn't have. My vision was soon getting blurry form all of the tears going down my face making It hard to notice a figure standing in-front of me.

One day your pain will become your cure
-M

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