Documented Dance

2/25/21

There was a Purim service today because to day is Purim and it was held over Zoom because COVID. The 2 leaders both think they are sopranos but are clearly not. I used to suffer from the same delusion and I am so glad that I no longer think that because the long term effects are disastrous. The mics were breaking, everyone was out of pitch/key, no one even knew the words, *amazing*. My whole family just kind of had it playing in the background as we ate popcorn and stared at our phones. Of course, we did look at the meeting whenever the reader said "Haman" and then we would scream at the top of our lungs, bang our feet, etc.

I didn't go to dance today because of th Purim service that I didn't pay attention to. However, yesterday I got yelled at out of no where for not getting dressed (tights, leotard, bun) for ballet. I've been doing classes in like, shorts or leggings because who cares, I'm not in the studio, I'm not on camera, they do nothing different. But apparently not getting fully deck out all the time means that I don't like dance anymore and that my parents shouldn't be paying for it because "It's like [I] don't want to do it at all." This is somewhat true because of the whole no motivation thing but still, I dance all the time just not the actual assigned combonations during class. Anyway, after the service, I watched an episode of On Pointe on Disney+. In this episode, they were practicing for the Nutcracker but it was also Halloween. It was super funny because everyone was dressed up in costumes during class and the boys went all out. The girls were in like cartoon costumes and bees and stuff but one boy had a banana suit on and another guy dressed up like Heather McNamara with heels and everything. At the end of the episode, the dancers were given candy beacause, Halloween and my dad made a "joke" about how they were going to eat it and throw it up at their dorms. I- just- hmmmmmmmm. I still can't rationalize that statment so let's move on to the paragraph about food!

My new mantality with food as of late has is as follows:
-eat as much as whatever I want whenever I want
-Feel bad about it later
-Do a 15 minute core workout
-Almost drown in the amount of water I drink
-Fall asleep/write/read while listening to subliminals
Carmel is now my life and I have like 10 pieces a day not counting the carmel popcorn I have. It's sweet and amzing but also keeps me from biting my nails for prolonged periods of time so it's perfect! My best friend came around and dropped off a bag of hamantaschen that my dad and brother can't eat because of hazelnuts so they are basicly all mine. I was super happy before I got more though because I thought I was finally going to stop eating so much with the lack of desserts bu nope, I've still got at least 3 days worth. I had all 3 meals today and they were all normal portions (yay!) but my dad also got more blackberries yesterday so I've already had half the container. There is another food truck coming tomorrow but it's like, pitbeef or something and I'm not looking forward to this one.

Even though I still haven't completed chapter 5 (or something, I don't know exactly) of my fic, I'm making new material for chapters and senarios that won't happen for quite a while. Yesterday I had to typeout the Sorting Hat's song at the begining of book 5 and that was 21/2 pages in the copy I own. It took forever and then I didn't know what else to write so I gave up. I'm also helping my friends with a Percy Jackson book their making here (Monkeypants8888 go check them out, they haven't posted anything yet) so I've dedicated most of my time to that. They let me make my own character that is loosley based off of me which is so cool and I get to make my characters story arc!

My light blew a fuse today so I had to contain my stach (which is currently being hidden in 3 different places) and pray that he didn't need anything near my bed at all as my dad replaced the new light.

Super excited for WandaVision tomorrow and a half day so I can be lazy and stuff (until ballet at 5:30)!

My life is especially boring and I just dragged everything out so there was some text that might be worthwhile-ish so yeah. I hope you're having a better day than me!