Can You Feel My Heart?

I hate this

Shadow POV

The day had just started and I already wanted it to end. I laid in bed contemplating what the point of this all was? It's like they all forgot about him... Whatever. I wasn't going to let his memory fade away. I heard a knock at the door. I hugged and rolled over, pulling the covers over my head. He doesn't know what this does to me. I can't look l at him. Not when he has his face.

I heard the door open and an obnoxious voice, he must have found the extra key I leave for Rouge. Damn it all.

"Hey Shad-"

"Get. Out." I warned.

"How long are you gonna sulk in here? Come on. Why don't we race like we used to-"

"Everyone may not be able to see you as the fraud you are, but don't come here pretending like I can't see it." I growled. The one everyone replaced Sonic with sighed defeated.

"I'm sorry you see things that way. Look, I know you hate me but-"

"If you know then why do you insist on coming back. Go back to your friends faker." I sat up with a glared, this imposter finally lowered his ears in defeat and began to leave.

"Will you at least come to the Cafe, Rouge wants to see you." He said as he left. Good riddance! I dragged myself out of bed and started to get ready. I opened one of my drawers and found a frame. This is new? Was this the gift Rouge had talked about the other day?

When I flipped it over my breath hitched and I froze. It was the real Sonic. Back when he had his injury. I guess Rouge had taken a picture of both of us when Sonic was staying at the hospital.

We were both sleeping at the time, he looked so peaceful. I had to tear my eyes away... I missed him... The real Sonic... But what could I do? It's not like I could just bring him back. Not the way he is now. No one would want one of Robotnik's robots in their midst... Even if it was the real Sonic.

I heard that annoying voice again, but this time it was coming from the small communicator I had attempted to discard in the trash yesterday.

"Shadow, we need your help- agh! ... Eggman sent a bunch of robots- and- I don't know how much longer we can- we're at Station Square Park- ... Please... I need you." Sonic's voice cut in and out on the communicator. I looked in the direction where the small device was disgarded. I knew it wasn't really Sonic but... I still want to respond and go to him immediately. I scowled and gritted my teeth. Damn these conflicting feelings. If he would just leave me alone I wouldn't have this problem.

My ear twitched I'm annoyance as I heard another cry for help from the piece of junk in the trash. Whatever. Let's see what's causing so much trouble then.

Chaos control.

I wasn't expecting everything to be on fire. I looked around and saw the Fox boy unconscious on the ground, not too far away I see Sonic, lying on the ground, I walk over to him with the intention of mocking him but when he looked up, all that came back was a memory.

When the dust cleared and I finally got rid of the last mercenary I looked around for Sonic. I found him in a growing pool of his own blood. He could barely keep his eyes open. The gaping wound on his leg was like a fountain, if the bleeding doesn't stop soon, he'll die from blood loss!

I quickly checked his body for any major wound but it seems he was just exhausted. The adrenaline made my hands cold as I started to search the area for whatever was threatening. A few low grade badniks were easy to spot but nothing enough to cause this. Where could...

"Project Shadow." That voice. It couldn't be... I turned to meet Metal Sonic's Gaze. Everything started to feel numb, that's right... I had my chance to stop his repairs but I couldn't kill my Sonic...

"Sonic?" I knew any hope of him remembering anything before he was robotisized was futile, but I still held on to the idea that maybe he would remember. He didn't answer, he came a bit closer as if to study me.

He walked over to me with confidence and held his hand out to me, was this a trap? I didn't dare come any closer, I started to back away. Without warning he lounged at me, he barely missed. I used the momentum I had to push myself in his direction to restrain him.

"What's your objective?" I demanded. Metal didn't respond. Instead he pulled me over his shoulder and threw me into the ground. He brought down his fist with such speed I was too disoriented to dodge him but he stopped before impact.

"Calculating..." His robotic voice interrupted his actions.

I looked at him confused, why did he stop? I quickly made some distance between us before he could have the chance for another hit. I knew I had to attack him, but no matter how many times I tried to rationalize it, my mind just lingered on the singular thought of what he used to be.

"Enemy not recognized." He kept a defensive stance but he was confused. I noticed some wire work had been exposed on one of his side panels. Maybe during his fight with everyone else he got damaged. Normally this would be good news. So why do I feel  dread? Without thinking I came closer to him and reached for the busted panel. Metal lurched away from my reach and became hostile again. I found myself on the ground again with him leering over me.

"Shadow..." I heard Sonic call. With my emotions all over the place I reacted without thought. My mind went back to the memories of when I found Sonic hurt. All I wanted was to get to Sonic. Fake or not, I needed to help him.

I slipped out from Metal Sonic grip with chaos control. I picked up Sonic and for a moment Metal Sonic hesitated.

"Error." Metal's voice repeated as he tried to reboot. I took the opportunity to finally use a chaos spear to incapacitate Metal Sonic.  I didn't stay for long, I took Sonic to a more remote area to properly heal him. He didn't look too bad. I held him close to me and concentrated on my chaos energy. The familiar sensation brought back so many memories, I let myself drown in the feeling. It was almost like having him back. I was so tempted to let myself go and shower him with affection, but instead I withdrew away from him once he was healed enough to hold himself up. We both ran back to where Metal was but he was gone by then. Sonic then quickly moved on to helping everyone and dealing with the damages. I stood there, reflecting to what just occurred. Am I so desperate to have him back that I would let my guard down like this? I glared at the ground  in annoyance. I can't trust myself around him, without a word I went back home. If Rouge still wanted to see me. She'd have to come to me.

A/N: This is gonna have all the conflicting feels!