Road to acceptance ( Chaeryeong x female reader)

*Chapter 6*

Y/n pov

I was walking home alone in the rain, thinking about what I was feeling. It's been a few weeks since Itzy debuted and they were an absolute hit.

I have been hanging out more with them and feel like I have made some new friends, which ofcourse is nice.
But to every nice side of life, comes a not so nice side.

Chaeryeong and I have been hanging out more and I think I might have cought feelings for her.

I mean, how can I not, she has everything I like in a person.

The truth is, I knew from the begining that I shouldn't get to attached to her, because she seemed like a girl I could fall in love with easly. She reminds me of...her.

I made a mistake all those years ago, and I can't risk the same thing happening again, so I've been trying to distance myself from her, but that's hard because my best ftiend is in the same group and she keeps on asking about it.

I don't know how to go back to the way things were, before I knew Chaeryeong, I'm not even sure if I even want to. I could ruin both our careers, and maybe even our lives.

I promised myself not to fall inlove again, but she is not making it easy for me.

I'm so chaught up in my thoughts that I didn't even notice I was infront of my house already.

I'm soaking wet from the rain, but I don't even care and I just want to stand here.

So I did, I just stood there, facing the door, with rain pouring down my face, the perfect camouflage for my tears.

The door opened and mom rushed outside and pulled me into the house. She wrapped me up in a blanket and pulled me into her warm arms. Then I just broke down. Now I knew myself that I was crying.

"Why where you standing in the cold rain?"

"..."

"Talk to me baby"

"I failed"

"Failed?"

"You know when I promised not to fall inlove again, I think I failed."

"Lee Chaeryeong, isn't it?"

"I need to stop this before it's too late and I fuck up both our lives!"

"Hey, if you're blaming yourself again for what happend to Aeri, you need to stop because that was not your fault!"

"It was my fault! And you don't know that! You weren't there!"

I rushed upstairs to my room. My mind was filled with my past, the past that I want to forget about so badly. My mind was filled with that last moment...with her.

Chaeryeong pov

We have been busy the past few weeks, Itzy was now officially debuted and we had our sceduals filled.

When we got free time, we spent it most of the time with Y/n, well I did.

But something changed, I'm startimg to feel different when I'm with her. I want be around her, because I like this feeling of her being there. I need to figuere out what my exact feelings towards her are.

Speaking of Y/n, I haven't seen her since last week, I should go ask Yeji unnie, since they speak almost every day on the phone.

"Unnie, have you heard anything from Y/n? I haven't seen her in a week."

"She called an hour ago, she said she has a busy sceduale, that's all, but something doesn't sit well with me."

"What do you mean?"

"She sounded...off, like she had something else on her mind. Maybe she's just sick, she hates attmiting that."

"Well, then I'll go check up on her tomorrow. I'll made her some porridge that I can bring."

Time skip>>>>>>

I was infront of Y/n's house, I've been here before with the girls. Before this I went to the studio, to check if she was there, but Lia unnie told me she called in sick.

I was about to knock on the door, when in swung open and ms. BoA was about to get out. She seems in a hurry.

"Hi ms. BoA, I heard Y/n's sick, can I come in?"

"Oh hello Chaeryeong, ehm sure, I need to leave before I'm to late, take good care of her, will ya?"

And with that she ran to a car parked infront of the house and got in.

I walked in and closed the door behind me. I should probalbly warm up my porridge before giving it to her.

When it was warm I made my way upstairs and searched for Y/n's room.

I knocked lightly and walked in to see her lying in her bed. I sat down besides her and take a good look at her natural morning face. Aside from her pale skin, probably from the cold, she is as goreous as ever.

"Ma?"

"Hey, it's me Chaeryeong, she left already."

"What are you doing here?!"

"I haven't seen you in a week, and I thought that since you are sick, I could take care of you. I made you some porridge."

She seemed to relax abit. That's good.

"Here, let me feed you, then eat some meds and rest up"

She opened her mouth and I fed her, it made my heart fluster how cute she was looking.

After she fell asleep I did some dishes since I was here now anyways. After an hour of watching tv, I walked back up to Y/n's room to check up on her.

She was in a deep sleep. I'm sure she needs it.

My eyes starded to wonder around her face, settling on her lips. My heart begun to ran wild in my chest and I leaned forward, without noticing, I placed my lips on hers.

This was the feeling I was searching for. It makes me so happy. Like it's supposed to be like this.

I came to realise what I was doing and pulled back, luckely she didn't wake up, but I was shocked.

Wait, I like her?!