𝐅𝐋𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐒 - jegulus ff.

chapter four

tw: swearing, ig

Pain.

That was the first feeling he felt when he woke up. His eyes hardly opened, by the crying he done yesterday, and his body was filled with anxiety. He didn't want to get up, but he didn't wanted to get detention that day, so he decided to keep low. He dressed up in his uniform, and went to the Great Hall to eat.

Sirius was already there, talking to Marlene about muggle music, and what's his favourite band, et cetera. James's ears were ringing, but he sat down with a smile.

'Morning, everyone!' He said in the most cheerful tone he could. The others returned the greeting, and continued talking. James sat next to Remus who was copying his homework from Mary, because he procrastinated yesterday afternoon.

'Can I copy too?' James asked.

'Weren't you doing your homework with Sirius's brother?' Remus asked curiously.

'I... I fell asleep.' James muttered.

Memories flooded his brain.

His laughter. How sweet it was.

'You should see your face!'  His voice was like honey.

His smile. It was so bright.

His lips, his breath. They were addicting.

James's stomach rolled, wanting more. But deep down he knew that would be impossible. 

'Earth calles James, you here?' James woke up for the nudging of his scarry friend.

'Yup.' The hazel eyed boy started copying. After he finished, most of the assignment, he put down the quill.

'So can we go?' Remus asked.

'Yup, yet again.' James nodded.

They stood up and walked out of the room.

'James!' He heard a shout behind him, but elected to ignore it. He started to walking faster, until he and the others reached the DADA classroom. They sat down next to eachother and patiently waited.

'Everyone take out their papers, and start writing about the definition of the spell Expelliarmus and the topic, how to escape a Vampire!' Professor Dumbledore's said.

'Fuck!' James mumbled as he completely forgot about the test.

After the class James were rather angry and disappointed at himself for this being terrible.

'Today is Quidditch practice, right?' Asked Sirius.

'Mhm.'

Another thing he completely forgot.

The changing room was full of the other boys shouting, because some lost their gloves, or other parts of their uniform.

On the stands some students were sitting including Lily, Remus and Peter, whom from two were reading and the other eating, and Dorcas Meadows, who were waiting for her girlfriend McKinnon.

The practice went good, especially for
Kingsley and Marlene, whose hit the bludgers trought the poles a couple times, as practice.

'Twas good.' James said.

After changing they went to the others.

'Guys you won't believe!' Dorcas started
'Lockhart asked me out. Again.'

'That little fucker!' Marlene exclaimed.

'Come on Marls, you know I love you!' Dorcas kissed her girlfriend. Most of the school did not know about them, but the Griffindor Dormitory was knowing since Dorcas and Marlene hung out there the most.

Sirius and Remus were talking with Peter, about the next Hogsmead trip.

'You've been quiet today.' Lily's voice came faintly 'Is everything okay?'

'Yes.' James muttered 'Actually no.' James said as realizing Lily was the only soul he could talk in this matter.

'Yesterday I kissed someone.' He said 'And I haven't asked for consent. And I also don't think he likes me.'

'He?' Lily looked deep into his eyes.

'Shit.' James realized he said his pronoun. 'Fuck, I mean. ...yes. He.'

'James. Don't worry. I don't judge. You are my friend. And honestly I don't really care about their gender.' Lily patted his shoulder. 'But about that consent thing, I really don't know. We all know you act a lot on impulse, maybe that could've been it? Maybe he'll forgive. I don't know who you're talking about, but not liking you is a stupid decision.'

'Thanks, Lils!'

'Guys! Is everyone down for a butter beer on Saturday?' Sirius yelled.

Everyone nodded, and agreed to meet, in the Three Brooms.

As they walked into the school, their laughter filled the hallways. The portraits rolled their eyes, and James could swear he heard Peeves mocking them. Suddenly, James felt a cold grip on his upper arm, and pulling in. James first tried to escape, but the other person was stronger and dragged them in an empty classroom.

'What the fu-'