He said, the moon goddess paired us

Chapter 21

Mishka's POV

I woke up with Alexander and his limps wrapped all around me. In the beginning, his arms and limps were heavy but now I find it comforting and safe. He was like a baby when he slept, sometimes in his sleep, he will kiss me. It was weird but cute. I loved him. But I was freaking out too. The logical part of my brain was totally fused. I needed to sit down, think through, and process everything. I had too many questions that I needed to write them down. He kissed my hair and whispered, "Goodmorning my love. How did you sleep?"

"Very well", werewolf or not, I always slept well beside him.

Deep dreamless sleep which made me feel all rested. If he ate me in my sleep, I will not even know it. I looked at him. He won't, will he?

"What are you thinking?"

"Nothing."

"It was definitely something, your eyes just went wide with shock". I got up, luckily, he didn't pull me back and I went to my room. I did not turn around to look at him, because I knew I will not be able to leave if I look back. Once inside my apartment, I sat down on the couch quietly. It was the first time I was alone. I needed it.

I could not believe my eyes when he turned into a fucking wolf. The wolf was so huge and scary. I would have peed in my pants if he did not turn back to human shortly afterward. A werewolf ... But what does that mean? How come no one knew about the existence of werewolves? Maybe people knew, like I did, but hid it like I was doing now. How will I tell my parents? They will flip for sure. There was no way they will let me marry a wolf. Why was he a fucking werewolf ?

Was he so handsome because he was a wolf ? All things beautiful are mostly dangerous. Now if we marry, what about our children? Will our children turn out to be werewolf too? What if people found out and captured him for scientific study? No... I prayed to God to protect him.

The doorbell rang. I peeped and saw Alexander. I opened the door and he was ready for the day. "I am going to the packhouse; will you be okay? Do you want me to stay here?"

"I will be okay." We stood there for a while, finally, he sighed and stepped inside, hugging me and kissed my forehead. "Please accept us, my love. Do you want to talk about it?". I shake my head and after kissing me once again, he left. I laid on the couch, doing nothing. The world I knew along with my sanity was completely upside down.

My stomach growled but I ignored it and stayed on my bed. After getting bored I watched some videos on youtube. Then, I poured a glass of wine and went to have a relaxing bath. I stayed soaked in my scented bath until the water got cold. I changed into sweatpants and a T-shirt and simply lounged around the apartment.

The doorbell rang again and this time it was someone delivering Indian food. I took the food and called Alexander to ask if he had gotten some food delivered. Yeah, it was definitely him. I thanked him and ate the food. I did not doubt that he loved me. Every single thing about him showed how much he wanted me and cared for me.

If I leave him now, I will never be able to forget him. All my life, wherever I am, I will never forget him. With time, I may not remember him every day but surely my mind will wonder about him.

Will I be able to love another man again? I have never been attracted to anyone as I did to him. After being touched by him, I knew that I was not the same girl anymore. Every other man will be plain and sparkless after his touch. My heart was tainted by his love. He was my oxygen, oxygen that has lighted up a fire that burned deep inside my soul. He was burrowed deep in my heart. They say one love will burn your soul forever, and I knew that his love was that one love for me.