The Skaiprisa

Chapter 19

The sound of running water wakes me from my sleep, I groan quietly as I turn, I stretch my arm forwards looking for Lexa but she isn't there. My eyes snap open and instantly panic sets it.

She left me.

I'm all alone.

I pull myself into a sitting position and mange to swing my leg over the bed away from all the thick furs.
My feet touching the cold floor, sending a shiver up my body.

Standing on my shaking legs I use the bed to balance myself.

I need to find Lexa.

Taking my first step is completely and utter agony with out someone to take my weight, but I continue another three steps before I feel my knees give way, I don't have time to catch myself. My body collides with the small table with a metal tray and then I smack the floor. The loud banging and clattering fills the room. Tear fall down my face freely as pain erupts from every part of my still weak, aching body.

Sobs only growing louder as I close my eyes and just except that I can't move further. I can't find Lexa. I'm all alone.

Suddenly I feel strong arms lifting me up, I know instantly it Lexa and with out opening my eyes I wrap my arms around her neck and continue to cry into the croak of her neck.

"Shhhh, shhhh, Clarke it's alright I'm here"Lexa comforting voice definitely helps me, I just hold her never wanting to let go as I continue to cry.

Gently I'm lowered back down into the bed filled with furs, Lexa hops over me and lays next to me placing a hand on my chest.

"I...I" I can't get my words out and it's frustrates me, Lexa can see the frustration as I start to stutter, only making me cry more, I can't breathe, it feels like my lungs are begging for air as I gasp in as much as possible.

"It's alright breath, your alright" her soft lips press again my forehead and in that moment I feel my breathing start to slow, Lexa's arm wrapped around me makes me feel safe.

"Y... You... W...W ... We're gone" I say between tears, Lexa starts rubbing circles on my arm.

"I was just in the wash room Clarke, I'm sorry" the sadness in her eyes makes my chest hurt even more.

We sit in silence for ages just holding each other, with Lexa cuddled up next to me I have a strange feeling of peace wash over me, sometimes I forget what it feel like to actually feel content.

After god knows how long I feel Lexa scotch away from me, she believes I'm asleep and gently lays my head on the pillow once her body is no longer there for me to lean on. She get up out the bed and I just continue to lay there I don't have the energy to sit up.
Suddenly I feel her soft lips against my forehead.

"I love you Clarke" she whisper so softly, her hand running down my cheek.
"I know your asleep but I have meetings to go to. Anya will be here soon, sleep well Ai Hodnes" (my Love) once again her lips press against my forehead before she walks away I can her the buckle on her clothes as she gets dressed and then the sound of her boot again the floor as she heads towards the door.

"Lexa" I softly say, grunting as I turn to face the direction she heading.

"Are you okay" worry laces her voice as she looks at me, her eyes a softer shade of green.

"I... I love you too" a smile spreads across her face and then she turns back to the door.

"Anya will arrive shortly with some food please eat"she say turning to face me her hand on the door handle.

"I will try" she gives me a sad look and then nods.

"Please try" she say with a small smile and before I had chance to reply she was gone and the door was closed behind her.

I sigh at the sudden feeling of lonely that hits me, I know Lexa's the Commander and her people need her now more then ever. However I also need her.

Letting the few tear fall down my face I snuggle into the furs and breath in Lexa sent, the smell of wild flowers and the forest of Trikru.

It smells like home.
Like safety.
Like Lexa.

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