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Chapter 4

(Y/N's POV)
Thursday 1:00pm

We arrived at the grocery store and we all went our separate ways getting whatever it is we wanted or needed for the next week. After around a half hour we all met back up in the front so we can pay and leave back home. Dream and Sapnap were arguing over who would pay for everything but before they knew it I had already paid. We all left and piled back into the car and was on our way home.

We all got settled in and brought all the groceries in and put them where they belonged.

It was so early in the afternoon and I q didn't know what else to do for the day, I didn't want the guys to be bored and regret staying for  another week. I asked Sapnap and Dream what they wanted to do and they couldn't have said a better plan if they wanted to. Dream said we should invite the others from the UK down for the week and spend some time all together. Since it was Thursday they would come Monday and stay till Friday so everyone leaves together. I asked who they were thinking from down there would be able to come and Dream said George can come and Tommy and Tubbo can come as well as Wilbur and Niki. I am very excited to meet Niki in person, we talked a little here and there and she seems like an amazing person!

As soon as I realized that five more people would be staying over I decided that I would buy some air mattress so they don't have to sleep on the floor, George can share a room with Dream, so that means I will buy two air mattresses. One for Tommy and Tubbo and one for Niki and Wilbur. If one of them don't want to share then they can sleep on the couch.

Dream said he would go to the store to get the air mattresses and more food since we were going to need it. That meant that Sapnap and I were going to get to cleaning, or so I thought. I saw he had gone to my room, must be changing into something more comfortable to help clean. I knocked on the door and saw he was laying in bed with one of the corners open, wanting me to come lay next to him. I told him that we needed to clean but he didn't budge, as soon as I walked up to the bed I tried pulling his arm to get him out but that didn't work in my favor, he just pulled me in bed with him. I gave up, I just lay here because if I try getting up there is no way I will be winning that fight. Sapnap just put his arm around my waist and we were just lying there cuddling. I'm not gonna lie I loved this moment. I put my head on his chest and slowly dozed off to the sound of his heartbeat.

I guess we both must have dozed off because when I started to wake up I looked at the time and it was 7:00 pm, but that's when I realized I didn't feel the warmth I dozed off with. I rolled over and didn't see Sapnap, I got up and went out to the living room to see the two boys watching something dumb on the TV. I walked over to the couch and sat down next to Sapnap and just punched myself closer to him so we were basically cuddling. He didn't seem to mind, he put his arm around me pulling me even closer. I felt safe right there.

It was getting pretty late already. It was 10:00 pm. I decided I was going to go and take a shower. I got up and let the guys know, they just nodded and continued watching whatever it is they were watching.

I got all my necessities and went into the bathroom, I took my hoodie off and saw the scars. They were definitely there, no doubt in saying that. I am much happier that my friends are coming down but I just keep getting the feeling to want to cut more. I reached into the drawer and grabbed the razor, this time I got in the shower and decided to cut my wrist there. I know I need to stop, I know this isn't the best way to cope, but it's what I do. I cut above the previous cut four more times this time they were longer though, I saw the blood drip down the shower drain. I just stood there crying, hoping that the sound of the shower canceled out my crying. I just sat in the shower for a little while all the blood was dripping down my arm at this point, I'm just watching it and staring just crying.

I must have been in the shower for a while because Dream knocked on the door asking if I'm okay in here, I quickly tried to steady my voice and said I was alright.

(Dream's POV)

It's been a while since Y/N has gotten in the shower, I got up and walked over to the bathroom door and knocked and asked if everything was alright, she said said he was all go so I went back to go sit with Sapnap.

(Y/N's POV)

I got out after Dream knocked and went to my room. I put on another hoodie and just some sleep shorts on. I walked back out and told them I was going to head to bed, they said they were about to head to bed too. A couple minutes later Sapnap opened the door and came in. I moved over so Sapnap can have room to lay down. I rolled away so I wasn't facing him, he noticed and asked me if I was okay. Just hearing him ask if I was okay broke me, I just started crying out of no where. He pulled me up to face him and said that it was okay, he pulled me into his chest and just hugged me while I was crying, I felt safe and cared for right here in this moment. He said I didn't have to talk just to let it all out, I just cried into his chest and stayed there hugging him, I soon started to stop crying but at this point he had laid down and I was on his chest laying down. I fell asleep on him and he was just there holding me.

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AN: hi guys! Tbh I didn't think I would get any reads! Right now I have 9, I think that's crazy! Thank you so much I'll see you next chapter! <3