Sapnap x reader

Chapter 10

(Y/N POV)

I saw Dream walk in and sit on the end of my bed, great I bet George told him what he saw. In my head I was freaking out but on the outside I tried staying calm to see if I could lie my way out of this. That didn't go well for sure in the end. "What are you up to?" Dream asks. Not gonna lie caught me off guard, thought he would ask me what George saw so maybe after all he didn't tell Dream. "I'm good, just got out the shower so doing my hair now" I told him while looking at him through the mirror on the wall. "Cool cool, have you been getting better with... you know." He says out loud. I quickly said I was better and haven't done it since. I should have knew not to lie because as soon as I said that he got up turned me around so I was facing him and looking at him face to face instead of through the mirror and immediately told me to tell him the truth. I had a hoodie on so he couldn't see my wrists right now I I stupidly lied again. "I said I stopped now can you stop and let me get ready" at this point I was getting a bit scared. "Show me your arm then" Dream said. FUCK. I can't get out of this now if I show him he will definitely know I was lying. As if the situation couldn't get any worse I heard a knock at my door. I asked who it was and Dream finally let go of my shoulders and backed off. "It's just me, can I come in? Is everything alright?" Sapnap said. Ugh great now he's here too. Before I could even say yes or no Dream said to come in. "Are you to ok, Y/N are you ok? Dream what are you doing" Sapnap said. Yeah I'm fine Dream was just leaving, I said with a smile. Dream was walking out when he told sapnap to look at my wrists out loud. In front of me. Dream left and closed the door. Sapnap turned to me and gave me that look. The look saying "really? Why again" I couldn't stand to see his sad face look at me like that, I started walking towards my door not saying a word. That's when Sapnap grabbed me and just pulled me into a hug, a silent hug but I could tell him started crying a little from the way he was breathing. I hugged him back and started crying myself.

After the nice hug he pulled away slowly and sat on my bed and looked at me and I just knew what he was asking the way he looked at me, he wanted to see my arm. I just held out my arm and he started to pull my hoodie sleeve up and saw the bandages. He sighed a little bit and he unwrapped the bandage and saw all the cuts. "Babe why so many, please tell my why you did it again? I don't want to lose you please" Sapnap said which little breaks in his speaking. That broke me hearing the way he was speaking. "I don't know I really don't, it's like an addiction I needed the pain to go away and cutting is my way of stopping the pain" I told him. He just nodded. "If you ever feel like doing this again please I'm begging please come to me I will help you in a safer way than this." Sapnap made me feel loved and I really didn't want him to have to worry about me or anything I'm doing but he just cares to much. I told him I would go to him if I ever felt like this. I don't know if I meant it 100% but I just said I would. "I need to go find Dream and say I'm sorry I'll be right back" I told Sapnap, ofc he said to take my time and just come back when I was ready.

I was walking out of my room and say Tommy and Tubbo on the couch, they were both just playing Mario cart on the TV. Tommy looked up and asked if I was okay. I was a little confused and said yeah I'm fine but then he pointed out that I had looked like I was crying. "Oh yeah no I'm fine I just hit my toe really bad and it hurt like a bitch" I said trying to cover up the real reason I was crying. Tubbo started laughing but Tommy lightly laughed but he didn't seem to buy my excuse. I walked away into the kitchen to see if Dream was in there at least, nope wrong again. It was just Niki and Wilbur cooking for later. Before they could see me I quickly left the kitchen. Where could Dream be I wondered. I decided to go back to where Tommy and Tubbo were to see if they knew where he was.  They said they think he went outside but wasn't to sure. I walked outside to see Dream just sitting on the front steps, doing nothing just sitting there. I sat right next to him not saying anything just putting my head on his shoulder. And staring forward. I felt his arm move and go around me to hug me. We just sat there quietly not saying a word just enjoying the company we are giving each other. I looked up to see Dream shed a tear looking down at me. I sat up and asked him what was wrong. "I don't want to lose you, I love you like your my sister. Just knowing your in pain and going through things I don't understand and your taking it out on your own skin, you beautifully perfect skin makes me so sad knowing I can't do anything. I just want you to see you how I see you, I want you to hear how Sapnap sees you he never shuts up about how amazing you are and how much he loves you. I want you to see how you look in the eyes of Tommy and Tubbo, they look up to you, like an older sister. They are always saying how much they miss talking to you or playing with you out how when you guys get into arguments you guys fight like siblings. I want you to see you how Niki sees you, she's always commenting on how gorgeous you always look or how smart and amazing you are. Wilbur he see you as a little sister, always looking out for you, always making your your doing good, making sure your always safe. George is always saying how funny you are and how he always thinks your going crazy because your always so fun to be around. I just want you to see how everyone else sees you and how much you are worth to us. That's all I want. And I know I will never know how you feel on the inside or what pin your going through but I just want you to know that everyone inside and myself included are always going to be here for you no matter what you do or what happens we just don't want to lose you." While he was saying this I was just silently crying because I never knew how everyone felt about me. It really opened my eyes, like I knew they all loved me but I didn't know they did that much. He pulled me into a hug again and we sat outside for a little while longer.

It started getting darker so we decided to back inside with everyone. At this point Sapnap and Niki were on the couch with Tommy and Tubbo. George, i don't know where he was and Wilbur was setting the table up for everyone to eat. This is my family I thought to myself. The love of my life is here with me and my best friends are here with me too. I have been thinking of asking them to move in with me but I didn't know how they would feel. I know I would need to either move to a bigger house out hire a construction crew to make the house bigger. Oh whatever we will figure that out when it gets to the point. I said fuck it and when everyone was sitting down I blurted it out "do you guys maybe want to move in all together?" I was getting nervous because no one was answering then all at once everyone was saying yes and screaming happily and just running towards me. Tommy and Tubbo said they had to ask their parents since they were still minors but I said I would ask later. We all sat down and started eating. After dinner was done Tommy and Tubbo both came outside with me and they called their parents to ask with me occasionally saying a couple things to reassure them they would be safe and how it's all adults in the house. After a little convincing they finally said they could move in with me. We all ran in and started yelling that their parents said yes. My best friends, no my family was finally moving in with me. I was happy, they were happy.

We all we happy together, the end!❤️

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