(Y/N POV)
The next morning:It was the next morning and as I woke up I felt an arm around me pulling me in. It was Sapnap of course, my now boyfriend. I'm so happy that i didn't even realize I was staring at him with a big smile on my face. He was waking up and say that I was staring, "what are you thinking about" he asks I say "you" and feel my face heat up. I quickly move my face into his chest and I can feel him laugh while holding me. After my face cools down and I don't look like a tomato anymore I tell him that we should get up and get breakfast for everyone. I suggested since everyone was still sleeping and since they went to the beach yesterday that we should order in food because neither of us felt like cooking. We went to the kitchen and I started to order from Sloppy Waffle (idk if Florida has that restaurant but where I live does so just pretend) I ordered everyone's food and they said it would be him in about 30 minutes. I told Sapnap that and he said that was good since no one was up.
The food finally arrived and I set the table up while Sapnap was waking everyone up. As soon as everyone got up they all smelled the food and came right into the kitchen. It looked amazing I must say, there were Apple cinnamon waffles, blueberry pancakes, cinnamon caramel waffles, eggs every way, toast of all kinds, and of course fruit and drinks.
Everyone grabbed what they wanted and started eating some in the kitchen at the table and some in the living room watching TV and chatting.
I didn't know what we were going to do today so I asked everyone, they didn't seem to know either so I suggested that we all play jack box and stream it. It wouldn't be hard because everyone brought their laptops and they had phones and I would just stream it on my pc. It was still early so we have a bunch of time to waste.
I decided that I was going to take a shower while everyone was cleaning up. I got all my stuff and went to the bathroom. I didn't use my bedroom bathroom I used the hallways bathroom, I don't even know why I just sorta ended up there. I saw that one of the guys had left their razor for shaving on the counter and just looking at it made me want to do it again. I know I told Dream and Sapnap that I wouldn't but it's so tempting. I tried to just ignore it and get in the shower and do what I need to do.
I finally finished in the shower and stepped out with my towel around me. I saw the razor again, for a second I forgot about it but of course I had to see it. I knew I had extra razors underneath the counter in this bathroom so I just decided I was gonna do it and just not tell Dream or Sapnap. I took one out and looked at my arm, how it was healing so good and now I'm just going to ruin it again. I didn't even care at this point. I cut, and cut more, and again cut more. I kept cutting until the sink looked all red. I stopped. I counted. 17, 17 cuts I did. I wanted to do more but I stopped. I hid my razor and started to wash up. I went to reach for the gauze so I can stop the bleeding. It wasn't there. SHIT. I forgot this isn't my bathroom, all my stuff is in my bathroom. I went to grab my clothes so I can at least hide my arm. OF FUCKING COURSE. I only brought my toiletries no clothes. I left them on my bed by accident. UGH. I started thinking. I need to walk out when no one is in the hallway and make sure no one sees me or my arm before I get into my room and then I'll be safe. I put my ear to the door to see if I can hear anything, I didn't hear anything so I thought I was safe. I started to leave and I was in the middle of the hallway, so close to my room, and that's when I saw Dream's door open. SHIT. I thought to myself I'm hoping it was Dream but then at the same time I'm trying to rush to my room. Before I knew it I crashed into George. In my head I'm think great perfect this is exactly what I needed. I said sorry so quick and that I forgot my clothes in my room and George just stopped in his steps and looked down then up quickly realizing that I'm only in a towel. He said sorry and covered his eyes. I laughed and just said I'm in a towel ur fine. He let go of his face and looked at his shirt. FUCK. He was wearing a white T-Shirt and it had blood on his side. He looked confused and I just stood there shocked as well. He looked at me and saw that there was blood dripping from my arm onto the floor. "Oh my gosh your bleeding I don't know from where let me help you" he said. At this point I knew I was fucked. "Oh no it's fine I'll check in my bathroom and fix it myself" I said trying to convince him I was fine. He seemed to buy it and just let me go.
I quickly ran to my room being careful not to slip because I'm still a little damp from the shower. I made it to my room and went straight to my bathroom and got the gauze. I wrapped my arm up and put my clothes on a long with a hoodie of course.
As soon as I finished I started brushing out my knotted hair. I heard a knock and I said come in, I thought it was just Sapnap because he knew I was changing so I just said to come in. I was wrong I looked at the door through my mirror and saw it was Dream. I looked over to him and said hi he looked at me and I knew something was up, he closed the door and sat on my bed. First thing I can think of was that George told him. But he couldn't he didn't even think anything bad of it. Well let's see what Dream has to say. Let's see if it's what I think it's about.
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AN: hey guys! I'm sorry I'm not updating as much as I should. I am going to stick to the once a week updating that I had said the previous chapter! Schools been stressful and I'm trying to see if I can transfer so that's why it's all crazy rn! I will be updating next Saturday! Hopefully you like this chapter! It was kind of rushed! Also I can't wait for George's cooking stream today like yes I can't wait! Love you all thank you for all the reads btw I did this kind of as a little joke and now it has over 150 reads! Thank you! Love you lots! See ya next chapter<3
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FanfictionTW: mentions of self harm and depression No smut Fluff Y/N has been friends with Sapnap and Dream ever since they were younger, they would always hang out and go places. Y/N is depressed and would cut but never told Dream or Sapnap in fear of what...