i'm going to use this to track my memories. the ones that i focus to recover. i don't want to lose them again, so you can keep them safe with me.
i remember a lot about the last day of school. the one before christmas and lockdown. i have two separate images, and one image that comes with a short film. i like it.
god, what a happy day that was. i'm so glad it can still exist for me.
-in school. it's a bright day and the sun pierces the sky. it's crisply cold, not my favourite weather, but i love it all the same. i look out the window and i see trees without leaves, skeletal frames that silhouette against the blinding grey sky. in the classroom with cream walls and a false laminate floor that's come up in areas, christmas songs play on the board. a whole class stands at the front, squished together. i think the song might be last christmas. i turn to my friend, who's lip singing into a pen. i smile and grab a pen of my own to join her. we perform like we're on a tiny stage, but also like no one's watching (because they aren't). a broad grin never leaves my face. this is my video of the day, the twenty or so people dancing, singing, enjoying the day. it feels colourful and clear and warm. it feels like family.
-sitting on a wall near the beach. the golden winter sun glows brightly, swathing everything with honeyed tones, and giving a mellow sense to the afternoon. i laugh and smile without it being false. i'm surrounded by my friends and i'm not sure i've ever felt safer. you were sitting right next to me and you looked so beautiful in the
-in a kids play park and by now the sun is obscured by pale grey and white clouds.
