Love's Complex

Chapter 17 (Part. I)

Ya'know, I don't get why I subject myself to this. I mean, I could've dropped out by now. I literally could have gotten a fulltime job by now, maybe make my own small business like those ones you see on social media so often. I probably should've kept my YouTube channel But it really did drain a lot outta me, and I'm too lazy. I just wake up, eat, go to school, go to work, and then study. Sure, I can go out sometimes but Id honestly rather not. Most of the time I just really want to stay in bed watching videos online or read and eat without gaining weight, maybe even win the lottery a person can dream.

As I'm sprawled across my bed, lamenting over my life choices, I hear a knock on my door and even though I am fully awake (well not really, but my eyes are open) I moan into my fluffy pillow. After the realization I had the night prior, I wasn't entirely sure if I could continue acting "normal" around the Five but alas, I groaned out a "come in", part of me hoping whoever was out there didn't hear it, but this morning is full of wishful thinking, eh?

I hear the door open and a look over to the intruder with squinting eyes to see Ian leaning against the doorway with a small smile on his face. My squint turns to a glare and I again groan into my pillow.

"Morning," my words muffled my pillow. "Whaddya want?"

"Naila, you should wake up now you know? Allegra is asking you to wake up for breakfast," he sighs.

"But I dont have class today" I just wrap myself tighter into my thick comforter and roll so my back is facing the guy. "I just want to sleep until work, please"

I heard a short chuckle and the door closing, and so I wrongly assumed that he had left and so I nearly succumbed to my thoughts once again only to feel weight wrap itself over my thick blanket. Looking up I see Ian, resting his head on his propped up arm looking down at me.

My cheeks puff up when he laughs as the look I give him. Turning back around to my position, I close my eyes and wait for him to leave, just trying to think of random thoughts until he does so but instead, I feel his arm tightening around me and I hear his breaths louder and closer to my ear. Facing his direction once again, I see himself getting comfortable with eyes closed.

Oh god I swear if he actually falls asleep I'm screwed.

I've heard the stories from the others about having to wake him up and I didn't exactly want a first hand experience.

Knowing full well I couldve taken this time to observe closely one of my new roommates but I thought against it. Once again, attempting to get comfortable once more, ignoring the whole man behind me (A/N: I was so tempted to add a swear here but Ive never put a swear in, in this story yet. Curse uniformity). I didn't feel comfortable enough with the knowledge that he was in a relationship and I didn't want to risk my own relationship with them. I wouldn't be able to handle it if they thought I was trying to get with one of them and then hating me for it. Not that I want a relationship, much less with them because I was hoping to gain new friends instead of relationships.

Friendships, I think, are much more stable than having a partner unless you find someone that can compliment you and it seemed that the Five had found that amongst themselves, which I'm happy about for them because they did so not caring about the conventional or society's opinions. Even so, my joy for them seems bittersweet because, being a human, I feel envy and I feel envy towards the relationship they share. And again I zoned out! I swear I don't do it on purpose, but it seems like I do it every chapter.

ANYways

My eyelids closed once again, it's so much easier to think with your eyes closed I think, as I succumbed to my entrapment. The warmth of the combined body heat of Ian and the blanket burrito wrapped around me seemed to actively comfort me and lulled me off to a semi-lucid state. In the outer reaches of my consciousness I hear stomping footsteps climbing towards my room which I would be concerned about usually but it's so... warm