Memories (SS x Marauders)

Chapter Eleven

This means speaking in their mind
"This" means speaking out loud
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SEVERUS' POV

Walking along the corridor of the train was severus, lost in his thoughts about the whole situation he was in, he wasn't really aware of his surroundings, his only thoughts on which compartment he would occupy so he could finally sit and think about what he would say to his mother about the veela situation.

He walked with his head hung low, not wanting to face any other student that walked past him, but sooner or later he felt himself trip over something, as he fell to the floor the old suitcase he had in his hand fell over on his ankle.

He winced in pain, and went to move so he could get up and curse at whatever had the audacity to trip him, he looked up to see a smirking James Potter before him.

Severus' face immediately formed into a scowl.

He looked around to see if potter's goons were with him, fortunately for him it was potter alone, but Severus knew better than to take him on now that he was alone, if he did then potter would come back with his gang to beat him up. Maybe he could just talk his way out.

"Why hello there snape"

Potter's creepy smirk was now in place, severus could tell it would take more than a few curses to get potter to leave him alone..

" *sigh* What is it potter? What do you want? Can't you see I'm busy? I don't have time to fool around with you"

"Oh.. I just wanted to remind you of what you said to lily, I wanted to let you know that she doesn't plan on forgiving you any time from now so you should just leave her alone". "I don't know what made you think you even had a chance with Lily in the beginning, but you definitely won't have a chance now, lily is such a wonderful and beautiful girl, and your such a slimy ungrateful git. Lily deserves so much more, she deserves me, when you called her that horrible name you really proved what a slimy evil slytherin git you are snivellus~" Potter said all of this with a creepy menacing smile on his face.

Severus could feel his fists tighten as he listened to what potter said. He so badly wanted to smash potter's face in, he wanted to kill him and disfigure his body so bad that when the Aurors find him they wouldn't be able to tell if he was a deceased animal or a human.

But he kept in all the urges and stood up, he took his old suitcase off the floor and turned around to give Potter the dirtiest look he had, he walked past potter and didn't look back.

He could Hear Potter's stupid laugh behind him as he walked away in anger.

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A few minutes later was an almost crying Severus finally settling down in a compartment, he threw his suitcase to the floor and sat down on the seat with his knees up to his face, the tears now streaming down from his eyes.

Who did Potter think he is to decide who Lily deserves?

Severus knew he wasn't in love with Lily, but he still felt a little jealous at the thought of Potter and Lily together, or is that the feeling of betrayal?

Severus' mind brought him back to the day he had called Lily that horrible word, at the time he had been so angry, angry at Potter and his friends, angry at his father, angry at lily for being friends with him, angry at this unfair world, and.. angry at himself...

He knew it was his fault and he was sorry, he immediately regretted offending lily, but she never accepted any of his apologises, she couldn't even bare to look at him whenever they were in the same room. Severus blamed himself for all of this, he had hurt his only friend, and it was only because he was a little embarrassed.

He thought about the look of disgust lily gives him whenever they accidentally make eye contact when in the same place together, he let out a choked sob.

No! No!

I have to calm down, breathe in, breathe out..

Severus practiced his breathing until he had calmed down, he stared down at his hands with a burn of fire in his eyes, not all of this is his fault..

If those stupid buffoons had just left Severus alone, none of this would have happened, he would still have had his bestfriend, he wouldn't have to feel like such a pathetic good for nothing.

His main goal for his life was to come to Hogwarts, get good grades, hopefully get a well paying job, so he could pull his mother out of the hell hole they call home, and have a normal life, where he could actually have a nice family..

Those Griffindor prats were making it hard to even brew a simple potion in class so he could get a good grade.

Severus was done taking their bullcrap, he was done being the target of their stupid pranks, he was done with Dumbledore and his foolish bias, he was going to make them pay.

If I'm going to do this I'll need a bit of dirt on them, not only that but I'll need something that could get them expelled, something that could run their lives, something that'll scar them for the rest of their lives, something that will make them feel what I've been feeling for the past 5 years.

Severus stared out the train window, he watched the scenery and felt himself doze off, his forehead leaning on the window. His last thoughts were of how he would ruin the Marauders reputation and how he could get back his bestfriend.

I'm very sorry for the late update my peeps. There's something called life that I had to deal with, then again I'm sure you all understand, I really hope you guys enjoyed this chapter though, and btw from now on I'll be asking questions at the end of each chapter and you can answer them in the comments, you don't have to answer them but I'd appreciate it 😄😆.

So uhh.. what's ur favorite song?

I have too many of those-