The Promise Flower || Hange Z.

Chapter Six

chapter six // ex

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   I've had someone before I dated Levi Ackerman. He and I used to date, and let me say one thing, it wasn't pleasant. He was a crazy fuck. His name was Franz Koch. Franz was rather clingy and toxic as hell. We would fight over absolutely anything and has threatened to kill me. He had fiery red eyes and silver hair. 

He was a rather handsome man but his personality threw me off guard. He was so terribly flirty like Jean. I fell in love with him for his first impression charm. He began to lie to me even if I had evidence to his minor crimes of lies. He wouldn't own up to it and flash it back to me. After a while he began to hit me. I have a scar just above my breast, one in my inner thigh and one on my neck. 

"Let's slash one here so no one can lay a hand on your chest ever again." He swung his knife just above my breast. "One, long one here." Franz slid his knife slowly close to my sex to half of my thigh. "And one just by your sweet spot." He chuckled, swinging his knife two times against my neck.

I was helpless, tied up and just wanted to disappear.

Yeah, uhm. That was Franz for you. He was a psychopath. He always comments about how he wanted my body and how much he just 'craved' me. 

How we ended? I cut his waist length hair to his shoulder and shaved the top of his head bald when he was sleeping. I drew 'xoxo' on both his eyebrows. It was hilarious but I was desperate to escape. He loved his hair, probably more than he loved me. The fact I did not only cut it, I made his stupid head absolutely disgusting like his personality. 

I left a note saying 'Thanks for the scars lol bye - y/n l/n'  I miss being that kind of bad bitch.. I really do. No matter how much I try to look into the mirror and say I was enough, so many memories, terrible ones just flew past me and shattered me more than I already was.

Levi has lost almost everyone.. But I'm not going to lie, he wouldn't be losing everyone if he didn't cheat. 

I feel bad for Levi, he's strong but this was his fault. And I just wanna get a step closer to the confidence at the end of this hell. I hope it comes, I hope it does. 

I got letters from Franz at times and Levi would get mad at me over it. I never replied to the letters but he said it was my pure fault they kept coming. Though, he threatened to hit me if I wrote a letter back, anyways. I wasn't free. We were never free.

I was helpless and tortured by Franz. I was mentally hurt and broken by Levi. This wall may fall and humanity will be of no help, either. People will come for me, I could die on the battlefield alone. Not even with Hange.

But I want to keep fighting, I really do.

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"Shh.. Y/N. Shhh.. Wake up my little titan slayer~" She hummed. My eyes fluttered open as I sat us from my damp pillow. "I'm sorry for waking you every night, Hange.. You don't have to sleep beside me, you know?" I sighed.

"You've been waking up a lot less lately, and no I will not stop sleeping beside you, you look so much at peace when you're sleeping!" She exclaims. "We have training todaaay! But you're excused." 

"Eh? I can still fight!" I protested.

"No you can't. The nurse said if you're moving too much you could collapse again." She rolled her eyes. "Okay, we're eating breakfast then. If I get to watch the little kiddos get beat up by who knows who" Desperately not trying to mention Levi's name. "I'm fine with it."