LIVE A LITTLE

apologies only go so far

i put the toilet seat down and sat on it.
leaning my head in my hands and starting to cry.
the shower curtain was yanked open and i jumped, nearly breaking a bone as i landed on the tile floor.

i saw kenma sitting in the tub with his phone.
"what are you doing in here"? i asked.
"hiding from the party". he said looking around the bathroom.

"well- can you leave"? i asked.
"why are you crying"? he asked standing up out the tub like what he was doing was normal.

"it's not your concern". i said wiping my tears.
"nevermind". he said holding his phone up to his face.

"is it because kuroo was mean to you"? he asked staring at the screen.
"what, how'd you know"? i asked confused.

he showed me his phone screen.
and the several messages that were blowing up his phone.

kuroo: OH MY GOD
kuroo: HELP BRO
kuroo: i was mean to y/n
kuroo: i basically called her a whore
kuroo: i didn't mean it!
kuroo: i just got upset because i know she was up there with bokuto
kuroo: do you think they did it?
kuroo: BEFORE ME??
kuroo: KENMA?! SAY SOMETHING

he looked back at his screen and sighed.
"this is why i don't date party girls". he said.
i crossed my arms and furrowed my brows.
"what are you gonna tell him"? i asked.

"what should i say"? he asked back.
"I DONT KNOW- it's your friend". i replied sitting back down on the toilet.

"i'll tell him you're in the bathroom with me". he started typing. "GIVE ME THAT". i said snatching the phone.

kenma: you shouldn't have said that
...
"i'm gonna tell him that wasn't me texting". kenma said sitting back down in the tub.
"shhh"! i hushed him.

kuroo: I KNOW THATS MY POINT
kenma: you shouldn't have made her feel bad
even if she did do something with him. it's not like you two are dating anyways.

kuroo: what got into you? lecturing me.
kenma: you asked for advice
kenma: dumbass

kuroo: so what do i do?
kenma: well first things first, how about to tell your friend lev to stop giving her such a dickhead look.
kuroo: y/n?

CRAP.
i forgot kenma wouldn't be able to see that happen.

kenma: no-
kuroo: i'm so so sorry
kenma: ITS ME KENMA
kuroo: y/n please come out the bathroom and talk to me.
kenma: how did you know he was in the bathroom.

CRAP now i really blew my cover.

kuroo: that's where he always goes.

i gave the phone back to kenma and he sighed.
"finally". he whispered.
;-;-;-;-:-;-;-;-:-::-:-:-:/:-:-:-:-:-::-:

as soon as i left the bathroom, kenma locked the door. i guess he didn't want anyone else coming in.

i walked slowly to the kitchen.
i really do need something to drink.
and maybe a couple pills.
this headache is killing me.

"hey CHAMP". osamu said smacking my back from behind.
"heyy". i said groggily.
"what's wrong"? he asked.
"just need some water and a tylenol". i responded.
"here". he said grabbing my hand.

he walked me over to the couch from earlier.
And sat me next to noya who instantly saw the look on my face.

"what's wrong"? he asked.
god is it gonna be like this all night? 
"i just have a little headache". i said.
"it's more than that". He replied wrapping his arms around my shoulder and letting me lean on him.

i felt so weak.
"what's up with the clothes"? he asked.
"bokuto threw my in the pool". i said.
he nodded.
his body heat was really comforting.

osamu approached me with a bottle of water and a bottle of tylenol as well.
"here take 2, 3 if you wanna sleep till tommorow after that vodka". he winked and left.

i leaned back against noya and he took the tylenol from me. opening it and putting two in my hand.
"he said i could take three". i whined.
"do you really trust that dipshit"? he asked.
i smiled, "no not really".

i opened the water and took a big gulp, finally my mouth wasn't bone dry anymore.
i popped the pills and washed them down. 

just as i put the bottle on the table in front of us, kuroo walked up to the side of the couch. and i slouched deeper into noyas hold.
"y/n". kuroo said in front of me.

i ignored him, not wanting to cry again.
"y/n i'm sorry". he said.
he came to sit on the other side of me.
and i sat closer to noya. he didn't take his hand from around me.

"i didn't mean what i said". kuroo pleaded.
"but you did say it". i said lowly.
"it's not true, i do trust you". he said trying to grab my hand.
"NO". i said pulling my hand back.

noya leaned to whisper in my ear.
"do you wanna go somewhere else"? he asked.
i nodded.
"WAIT"- kuroo said holding my arm.
"WHAT"?! i asked back.

"i would have never said something like that if i had time to think about what was coming out my mouth, in no way do i see you as some hoe, or some type of pass around....i know we're not even together. i just got so jealous seeing you wearing his clothes, and going upstairs with him, i don't even care what happened. but i can't lose you as a friend".
he said running out of breath.

i looked into his eyes.
they were sorry.
he was sorry.

"i forgive you, but i wont forget it. and i don't want to talk for the rest of the night. kiyos somehow pissed at me and i don't even feel good". i said.

"she's only upset because you left her down here, but suga is explaining to her right now, that you had no choice but to go change your clothes and dry your hair".

"well if that's all she's mad about, then it can easily be fixed". i said standing up with noya.
"so you really don't wanna talk"? kuroo asked.
"i said not for the rest of the night. you can try tomorrow". i said walking away.

deep down i was still so frustrated.
angry, nervous.... just sad right now.