Fearless

Texting Thoughts On Sleepless Nights

We arrived at the hospital, tears streaming down my face, and we followed Bella as far as we could until the nurses said we had to wait for her to get into a stable condition. Ever since the nurse left us all I've heard is Alex, Jack, Zack, and Rian fighting with Niall, Louis, Liam, Harry, and Zayn. Cher sat in the corner, looking pissed as usual. Suddenly she stood and stormed out, only making my temper flare. Could she not just sit in the same room with them until we found out if Bella was ok?! Zack and Harry were in eachother's faces screaming insults and blame.

"WOULD YOU ALL JUST SHUT THE HELL UP AND SIT THE FUCK DOWN BEFORE I BREAK YOUR FACE?!" I snapped turning so I was facing them. All of their eyes stared at me like I was crazy and I could feel my hands shaking by my sides. "MY BEST FRIEND IS IN CRITICAL CONDITION AND ALL YOU ASSHOLES CAN DO IS BLAME EACHOTHER!!! YOU WANNA KNOW WHO'S FAULT IT IS?! MINE! SHE WAS RUNNING AROUND LOOKING FOR ME GODDAMNIT! " my voice cracked and I felt a warm tear roll down my cheek.

Just then the nurse said we could see her and I ran past her, straight to the chair next to Bella's bed, and sat down. The tears fell freely now, and I felt myself being pulled from my chair into a pair of strong arms that I knew belonged to Louis. His breath tickled my neck as he whispered softly to me.

"I'm sorry Luna. We are worried too. You know this isn't your fault right?" The hope in his voice was too much, so I lied.

"I know, I just feel like it is because she was asking for me.."

He nodded and let me go, only so I could be pulled into hug after hug, ending when I sat down and refused to look at anyone. All that was on my mind was Bella.

Thats how we spent the next 6 hours, unmoving, me on one side of Bella with Zack - only because he never talked to me and I needed time to think- Harry on the other, Louis and Niall sharing a chair, Rian, Liam, and Zayn sharing a couch, and Jack resting his head on Alex's shoulder. Almost every one was asleep by the time I came out of my thoughts and looked around. There was no way I would join them in dreaming tonight, I still felt guilty.

My phone vibrated in my pocket and I looked at it with burning eyes. Thats it, if I cry anymore, I'm going to explode.

*NEW MESSAGE FROM: PETERPANBITCHES;)*

I couldn't help but smile at what Alex put his name under after we both confessed our love for Peter Pan. Don't you judge me! It's a classic! :P

PETERPANBITCHES;): Penny for your thoughts?

ME: Feeling guilty. Why are you still awake, everyone else is asleep?

PETERPANBITCHES;): Just another sleepless night. Besides, I wanted to make sure you were ok. You have no reason to feel guilty, she doesn't blame you, no one does, she just pushed the limits too far is all.

ME: I know. Just a bad habbit I guess.... I'm craving hot chocolate. :)

PETERPANBITCHES;): haha! you're so random! I love it! I'll get you some, brb ok?

ME: THANK YOU! :) Youz da bestest Lex! :P REMEMBER DA MARSHMELLOWS!

Alex rolled his eyes and mouthed "suck up" to me as he winked and left the room, causing me to smile a little more. Maybe this will be ok. Bella will get better. But then there's my love life to sort out, and hers too! Ugh! Life is a beautiful bitch sometimes!

=2 Weeks Later=

I was sitting by Bella's bed at about 7 pm, she was still in a coma, and every fiber of my being was praying for her to be ok and wake up. I had gone out a few times to get clothes and such from my house and eat but other than I hadn't left this room. I couldn't leave her, even though she was in a coma she still needed me and I'll be damned if I was going to let her down. The boys had been fighting but they kept it down for our sake, getting along as best as they could. Hell, in the span of 2 weeks Rian and Jack had become almost best frieds with Liam and Zayn. I couldn't believe it'd been so long.14 days I'd been watching her like this, looking for any sign of movement. 14 days I've gotten nothing. I have tried everything, talking to her, praying, everything I could think of and nothing was working. The nurses had been in and out, running tests and checking the monitors. I still had no idea what was going on with Bella.