Chapter 10
Mew walked his way to the hotel. He was not in his mind to think about his car parked at the basemeh nt.. all he thought about the pain and struggle his mate had to go through... and what was he doing?? BEING A DICK AND F**CKING SOMEONE ELSE...
HE HATES HIMSELF.... HE SHOULD HAVE BEEN THERE FOR HIM... HOW CAN HE BE SO STUPID NO TO NOTICE THE DETEIORING HEALTH OF HIS HUSBAND...
HE SOMEHOW CAME BACK TO HS ROOM AND DUMPED HIMSELF IN HIS BED...
Shit.... He was crying.....
I am sorry baby..
I am sorry baby.. I am so sorry...
Mew was ranting only... and was crying... hearing Gulf's suffering from Dr. Phana..made Mew realize what an asshole he was... but he changed the day Gulf left with a note of HAPPY BIRTHDAY signing the divorce papers...
He cried and didn't realize when he slept..
That night he dreamt about GULF..
It was one such day before everything happened.... The time when they were working at the site for their hotel project...
Mew has been working on the designs with the architects when he saw Gulf talking and smiling with one of the colleagues...
His heart felt sore seeing the sight..
He saw how Gulf and the man bid goodbye shaking hands and hugging .. and Mew went with his work.... he couldnt get the fire feeling from his head.. as if his head was boiling inside....
Gulf came running to his husband.. P Mew lets go to the carnival today.. please...
Mew nodded and after work they went for the carnival.
Gulf was enjoying the colors and decorations the carnival... he was just walking beside his pretend husband ..his mind was somewhere else... he could only see Gulf talking and smiling at one of the colleagues... and a certain burn he could feel in his heart.... He was conflicted ..in his heart and was arguing in himself what to call this feeling when he experienced a jerk and saw wide eyes Gulf looking at him..
What happened P?? I was calling you... you were not replying!!! Don't you like the carnival?? I am sorry.... You agreed to come..so I thought you also like it...
Mew shook his head..no its not that....i like carnivals... I come with Tar to our city carnivals.... And he regretted talking Tar's name!!
Just for a second he thought he saw Gulf's sad eyes but then the young man turned and distracted his attention to the fireworks above..
Mew was feeling guilty... they decided they would never talk about Tar in these two months...... to make up his mistake Mew interwined their hands together.. Gulf wa surprised a bit ..but he smiled... it warmed Mew's heart...and they walked through the crowd.....
When suddenly a crowd of people ran towards a shop.... Detaching their hand... the husbands were separeated..... Gulf was calling for Mew and Mew was trying so hard to get to his husband.. he could see the panic in his eyes.....
Gulf shout P..P..P Mew .. woke the man up from his slumber....sweating....gulf's cries were echoing in his ears... and throughout the room...
He can never forget how scared he was when he saw Gulf's panicky eyes.......
Mew was breathing heavy..... as his vision cleared he saw that he was in his room... and the bright sunlight was coming from the wind...
He sighed and went to the wash room ...cleaned himself up ... and went for his breakfast....
