Struggle | H.S | AU |

Thirty Six|

Anna

I woke up to a tremendous headache and I was wondering if this how you are meant to fell when you have died. I really didn't want to open my eyes, just because I was scared of how being dead would look like. I still did though and what I saw didn't please me at all because I was in my own bed and I was lying against someone. I tried to look up but that didn't seem to work so I just stared at his bare arms and recognised the tattoos. Harry was here, which meant I wasn't dead.

That's when I noticed the needle in my arm with a tube full of blood? What the hell did they do to me? I moved my head to the side and felt a pain through my head. God that hurt! There was a blood bag hanging on the equipment for that. Why did I need blood? Oh wait that's right I tried to kill myself, couldn't they just leave me alone? I was still looking around my room, which was transformed into a hospital room for some reason when a voice from behind said my name.

"Anna?" I turned my head carefully to his side and the moment I stared in his green eyes I know he was relieved but also angry with me for doing something like this. "Harry." I said acknowledging his presence and I saw him take a deep breath, before he got closer, when I did this I saw that the anger was taking over and it made me want to hide somewhere. He wouldn't do anything now right?

"WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!" He yelled at me and that really hurt. I groaned in pain, whilst hiding under my pillow but he grabbed it and threw it aside. "WHY WOULD YOU KILL YOURSELF?!" He yelled, completely ignoring that my head was pounding. "I just couldn't handle it anymore." I mumbled without looking at him. "What do you mean?" He urged and I couldn't help but roll my eyes, which also hurt.

"I felt so hopeless and weak. I don't want to be someone's property and to be treated like you did or that Bradley guy. It was just too much, I couldn't process it anymore." I said softly whilst looking at my hands. I heard Harry sigh. "I'm really sorry, I know I have been a jackass but that's how I get things done and usually everyone listens to me but you, you defied me in every possible way. It drove me mad and it turned me on, I know I'm sorry but I'm still a man." He was giving me the most common excuse in the world made by men but I really didn't want to discus this right now so I just nodded my head as if I understood.

"I get it, I think." I understood that he was still a dickhead but he didn't notice the hint of sarcasm in my voice. "I know I had gone too far when I beat you up so badly that you had to go to the hospital, that's why I left that note for you." That note didn't really mean anything to me anymore. "What about those other times, that you hit me and the way you went after me, when I ran away?" I asked him. "I was terrified when they came after you, so when you ran after I told you to stay in your house, I lost it again and not only because you ran but because you put yourself in danger again." I felt exhausted and had to stifle a yawn, Harry brushed his finger lightly over my cheek and it felt nice.

"Go to sleep, we will talk more tomorrow." He said whilst getting up. I couldn't focus anymore and everything was blurred. They must have put something in my IV, which made me sleepy.

"Anna, wake up?" Someone was shaking me softly. I sighed and tried to turn around but something made me stuck in the position I was in. "That's not going to work Anna, just wake up love." I opened one eye and saw Niall standing next to my bed, with a small smile on his face. I couldn't ignore him as he has always been there for me even if it was in a sneaky way.

"What do you want Niall?" I asked sounding exhausted. "I just came to check on you, how are you feeling?" He asked me a bit to nicely. "I feel exhausted and a bit weak." I told him honestly because there was no reason to lie about it now.

"That's understandable, you lost of lot of blood." he told me and I nodded. "Yeah, That was kind of the plan but thanks for saving me I guess..." I said sarcastic. He shook his head in denial. "I didn't save you, Harry did." He said and this shocked me because I didn't know that, although I know he wouldn't let me die. "Excuse me?" I was shocked and it made Niall chuckle softly, which I had never heard him do before. "Yeah Harry was the one who found you and he did everything he could to keep you alive." My mouth fell open, I didn't know Harry could help someone if they were hurt.

"Why would he do that, why not let me bleed out because it would make everything so much easier?" I was talking to myself but Niall thought I was talking to him. "Why do you think Anna, use your head for once." He scolded me and while he waited for me to come up with the answer, he checked my vitals and pulled out the needle, as I didn't need any more blood from now on.

"Niall he doesn't love me, I'm just an obsession for him." I said hesitantly but Niall shook his head when I said that and that's when every puzzle piece fell into place. I couldn't deny all the proof. How could I have been so blind

Notes

So this is just a filler I will update another one, later today! I hope you all liked it!! Let me know with a lovely comment.

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