Struggle | H.S | AU |

Forty Seven|

Harry looked at me with a thoughtful expression and to be honest I was t sure if I was talking about us or the Bradley situation but Harry choose the Bradley situation, which was fine by me. "You are not going to do anything Anna" Harry was quite determined when he said that but there was no way I was going to look from the sidelines. Bradley was going to pay for what he did to Zayn and me. Zayn was still not out of danger and speaking of Zayn I really had to check on him.

I got up but Harry stopped me. "Where are you going?" I faced him and smiled. "I need to check on Zayn, I will be back in 5." He shook his head. "Louis Is with him, he can take care of him, you should go to sleep because Zayn is not the only one who needs rest." He had a point but I was feeling way to nervous to sleep because even if we told each other that we love one another that doesn't mean I'm suddenly comfortable around him. I mean his mood swings are something to look out for because yes now he was being nice but I know that it could change in a split second and I wasn't sure if I was up for that. I really needed to know what kind of medication he was taking because even if he tells me not to worry I will worry eventually. "I don't think I can sleep." I said apologetic. I wasn't looking at him but I know he got in front of me.

I held my breath but was a bit startled when he gently stroked my cheek. If he noticed this he choose to ignore it. "You know, I can make you sleepy, if you want to." He was not really offering me sex was he? My body was still aching from the beating I got from Bradley and the fact that he almost raped me, wasn't helping me. I shook my head "No I will manage." I walked to my bed and switched off the light. I heard him sigh whilst walking to my door. "Good night Anna." He said before shutting the door behind him.

There was no way I could sleep, so I waited for at least 2 more hours. I got out of bed and went straight to Harry's room, knowing him, he wouldn't be asleep for a while. He probably was downstairs working out or having a meeting with the other lads, this would be my only chance to see what kind of medication he was taking. I sneaked into his room and walked straight to his bathroom, I didn't switched on the light but just used my IPhone for light. Just to be sure no one would catch me. I went to the medicine cabinet and started to look around but there was nothing there. This was really frustrating. I sat down on his toilet seat, which looked really clean to my surprise and thought about where he could've hidden those pills when I saw a box under the sink. How I didn't spot that, is beyond me but there it was.

I grabbed the box and opened it. I was a bit shocked to see so many pills but then again they could belong to anyone here in the house because Harry is the leader of this gang. I examined some of the bottles and I was correct none of those were on Harry's name and I was about to give up when I saw a white bottle. I grabbed it and was happy to see it belonged to Harry, I wasn't happy when I saw what kind of pills it were but then again it would explain a lot.

The mood swings, his violence, the way he sometimes disappears for no reason. I only read about it and I couldn't remember if I knew someone with this disorder but if I did know someone, it still wouldn't have mattered. I sighed and looked at the bottle again, which said "Lithium" he had to take them at least twice a day and they were actually prescript. Harry had Bipolar disorder, at least that's what the pills are for, If I am correct. I felt so bad for him. I don't know exactly how long I was sitting there when Harry's voice made me jump, making me drop all the pills. Thank god for caps on those bottles.

"What are you doing here Anna and in the..." He saw what I was picking up in a hurry. I stopped when I felt his eyes in my back. "This is not what you think Harry." But of course it was what he was thinking, The thing that was scary, he didn't say anything, He just turned around and walked away. I could here the front door closing. He actually smashed it against the doorframe. "Harry, where are you going mate?" I heard Niall shout behind him but Harry didn't say anything back. After picking up the last bottle. I returned the box back to it's place and I went straight to bed. I know I should go look for him, but he said I couldn't leave the house for my own safety and I wasn't going to defy him anymore. Some day he will probably kill me and I wasn't ready for it to be today. Due to all the commotion I was finally to tired to stay awake and listen if Harry would return.