Ranboo angst

Mental health cat

Hi! I hope you are all well! If not then let me be your outlet. Turn on some music and put on your headphones! This is an au of what could have happened on the smp.

Tw:
Death
Explosions
Anxiety
Gore
Blood
Suicidal thoughts
Mention of death
Voices
Swearing
Panic attacks
Passing out
Corpses (not the youtuber-)

Ranboo's POV:

Pressing the stone button, I awaited for the iron door to open before I stepped out. Unable to react quick enough, familiar hissing became prominent in my ears.

Boom!

Ringing filled the silence as I looked over to the location of the noise. My house had been blown up but that wasn't the worst.

Lying in front of me, the bloodied corpse of Jjjjjeffrey the cat.

No no no no, why god why..

Glancing down, I caught sight of another of my pets. Laying lifeless on their side, Ranbird's blood splattered against the stone brick floor.

WHY?!

Those were the only two pets that were trained to help my anxiety. I've lost a lot before but this was just cruel. Life took those who deserved it away from me as I was forced to watch others have what I longed for.

Only just noticing, I found that the crimson liquid (wait a minute what colour is his blood?) drizzled from my ears. Eh I'm used to that but I'm going to have such a dreadful headache after this.

Quit standing there your pets just died you moron.

Kneeling down towards the grass blocks that usually brought comfort. I knelt above his body for a moment before scooping the kitten into my arms. Ignoring the fact that I'll smell like blood in the morning, I climbed up the hill beyond my home.

I knew something I loved was bound to die soon. It's almost routine now.. Did it really have to be this unfortunate.. Pull it together, at least it wasn't a person.. That would hurt a lot too..

"FOR FUCKS SAKE WHY CAN'T IT JUST BE ME?! TAKE ME INSTEAD YOU CRUEL- cruel reality.."

I knew no one would hear me, the others were hibernate again. I wish I could do that.. sleep forever. Maybe then I could be at peace.

Digging two holes, I placed the first in a hole before covering the body over with fresh dirt. Hurrying to fetch the other corpse, I forced myself to pull through with it. Why is it painful? No stop it, shut up and then it's over with. All you have to do is cover- it and build the grave stones.

Carefully but quickly, I cover the last man made hole before making my way towards the death place..

Approaching the walls I spotted another figure walking towards me. Wait no, two.

Phil? Techno? Oh not now please I can't talk to them right now.

Suck it up and do it.

"Hey mate, we heard an- oh.."

He stopped himself as I approached. Having connected the dots the eldest gave a pitiful smile whilst Techno seemed to analyze my emotions. Welp he knows now, shit.. They can't know. That would hurt them to find out. Nope, don't let them see.

What do you mean by that you are stood infront of them covered in blood. Melancholy is written all over your face. It's too late for that. They're aware..

Walk past them.

Doing as the voice said, I swiftly walked passed them before hopping down into what was my basement. Grabbing the needed materials, I recover the roof once more before exiting my home once more.

Returning to the lonesome hill, I built identical crosses before falling to my knees.

Shit..

Knowing what was to come, I prepared myself for the lack of air in my lungs.

Just as I finished that thought, the familiar ache in my chest cavity had made a return. Being honest, I don't know a way to prevent these other than passing out. What else could I do?

On that thought, a familiar figure came running towards me. Techno..

Heh he was too late.

Figure hitting the biting cold of pearly white, I looked over toward him and gave a weak smile. Vision going blank, I no longer knew of what went on around me. I'd forget this though so it wasn't much of a bother.

Technoblade's POV:

Aware of the feeling that something would go wrong, I watched the boy warily. As I'd grown a liking to him. We were somewhat similar in a way. It was nice to not be alone. In the sense that you aren't the only one if your kind.

Thoughts coming to a halt, movement caught my attention as I snapped my head towards the area. Upon the snow covered hill knelt he whom mourned the losses of today. That however was not what he was doing.

Hybrids have strong senses of hearing so the ragged breathing didn't go unoticed. Immediately knowing the situation, I rushed upwards only for him to hit the floor.

Fuck kid.. you don't have to put yourself at harm because you believe yourself to be a burden.

(That goes for you too reader!)

With no way of moving the teenager, I messaged Phil to help me move him just so he wouldn't die. Yes he had all his canon lives left but he is a child who has done nothing deserving of deaths fate.

Once they got him into his house:

Ranboo's POV:

Eyes fluttering open, I soon recognized my surroundings. What happened?..

Sitting up, a paper fell from ontop of the blanket. A note?

Skimming through neat handwriting, I grasped understanding of the events that led up to this. Subdued again, I felt tge scars begin to burn. No they can't become deeper. It hurts.. Make it stop, please-

Suppressing screams, I bit down on my arm. That was until the door swung open to reveal the piglin who had saved me multiple times now. I'm so grateful for him, he's no villain. Simply just doesn't express his feelings until he's about to break.

Arms engulfed me in warmth as his thumb brushed the tears from my eyes.

Leaning into the touch, I finally felt like their was somebody else that understood me.

Hey! I am so proud of you all. I love you so much and send virtual hugs. If you need to talk to someone my dms are open. If you haven't already make sure you've looked after yourself properly. Thank you for reading ♥︎