Elegy (Elegie) Sope/Yoonseok

VIII

Hoseok paces around in his room. He doesn't know how to even continue the conversation with his father since he knows that he will want to marry him off to someone. It feels so awful that he can't just be with the one he loves in peace. What is the need of marriage anyways?

He decides to go to sleep so he can wake up early in the morning to be able to think of something.

In the morning he goes of into the kitchen to go find something to eat. He is especially hungry since he didn't have dinner the previous night. He sees one of the cooks and greets them. He asks the main cook if there is any food ready, they reply no but says that the biscuits should be ready in a few minutes. In the mean time he asks if he can get some fruits. They hand him some sliced apples that were to be used in the apple tart and then a banana.

While eating the slices of apples they hand him a biscuit with some jam. Now being satisfied, Hoseok thanks them and heads to the front door. He tries to not make too much noise to wake up his father. Hoseok reaches the front door, he sees one of the butlers standing in front of the door. They ask if they can be taken somewhere, he replies that he doesn't need assistance but he still thanks them and he goes on and walks out of the door.

Taking in a breath of the cold dewy air he feels satisfied as the slight breeze goes against his face.

He walks down the path of the home until he reaches a dirt road. The road is in between the tall luscious trees. He smiles up at the sky, looking up at the twinkling stars that still remain, far ahead, he can also see the sky changing colors.

He walks until he reaches Yoongi's house and waits under a solitary tree until he sees him walk outside. Yoongi starts to water the plants in front of his house.

The sun has barely rised, the rooster crowed in the background. It was probably the roosters that kept him awake while he waited.

Yoongi makes his way around his house to water the plants. Going around the house to water all the plants, he once again reaches the front of the house, now with the morning being more illuminated, he noticed someone sitting under the oak tree. Yoongi walks over to them, he was going to ask why they were there and if they needed help but noticed it was Hoseok.

In a whispering voice he asks, 'Hoseok? What are you doing?' He continues to walk, before he takes a seat next to him. Yoongi sees that his expression is slightly sad but he just waits for him to talk about it.

Hoseok stares into Yoongi's eyes before giving a reply. He hums a bit. At first he isn't too sure as to what he is humming but recognizes the melody after a few measures. 'Mhm, I don't how to say this, what if we leave the town to start a new life elsewhere?'

Perplexed, Yoongi tilts his head and furrowed his eyebrows. 'Why do say that? Did something happen?'

'Well, yes, I guess so. My father kind of found out about us. He was really mad. I know he would go to the lengths of marrying me to someone in the next few days or week because of it.' He holds Yoongi's hand and gives him a small smile.

'I know why we do this, but why the hell do we do this, do you realize how much easier our lives would be?' Ashamed, he lowers his head, he can't face him. Yoongi loves him dearly but sometimes has the feeling that they can't go on like this since it only brings trouble.

He understands what Yoongi is saying, but what does what others think have to affect them? He thinks a bit before he replies.

'Why do you think that you should let others decide if we should be together? Do you not want to be with me?'

'It isn't that I don't want to to, it is that we can't.'

Hoseok now takes both of Yoongi's hands in his own, 'It isn't that you can't, it is that you don't want to.'

'You know that what we are hiding isn't something that we can just continue forever, how do we hide something like this? You literally just said that your dad somehow figured out. Don't say that I don't want to, I do, I love you with all my heart.' Yoongi takes his hands out of Hoseok grasps and holds them together on his own lap.

Hoseok frowns and then let's out a sigh. With a mumble he says 'I love you too.' He lays his head on Yoongi's shoulder.

Yoongi's father saw their interaction from the window of the house. He didn't mean to be nosy but he just happened to see. It is far enough to not be able to hear but close enough to see their silloutes.

Thinking about it, it wasn't that he hadn't though about their relationship previously, since they were younger, they had always been pretty close. These days even closer and spending more time. He however, never actually thought that they would be in such relationship with each other.

Coming to the realization brought him some pain. Not just towards his son, but from within another part that had awakened. As a father it hurt to see, he would rather his son be with a woman, but also as a father he couldn't condemn the feelings of his own child, this child wouldn't be happy at all if he were to forcefully seperate them or forcefully marry him off, after all it was his child, blood connected them.

However the awaking he felt within himself, just had a weird feeling to him. This realization he had come to was quite uncomfortable to have realized. Seeing his own son be so comfortable in the embrace of another man, made him realize that at his son's current age he also felt a similar manner towards a close friend that he had. He just let the idea pass over his head and though that everyone thought that way.

At that moment he felt thankful to his wife for having came into his life. Thankful for having someone else to focus on. Thankful for the child she gave him. He truly loved his wife, but he can't deny that he had feelings for another man before they had met.

Knowing his late wife better than anyone else, he knows that she probably wouldn't like it either if he would condemn her child's feelings. If she were still alive, she would support her child. She would also probably descend from heaven and turn into a furious ghost forever haunting him until his death if he would do a thing to stop their child.

The older man let out a sigh before softly chuckling to himself.

Yoongi then sees the front door to his house open to which he taps Hoseok on the head to get his head off his shoulder. His father calls to him and tells him breakfast is ready. Coming closer the older man says with a nonchalant smile. Almost as if he didn't see anything.

'Hey! Hoseok! How have you been?! Would you like to join us for breakfast today?'

Hosoek stands up from the ground. He has some struggle in standing since his legs have long gone numb. He gives the older man a small smile and agrees to his offer.

At this point none of them have noticed that within the shadows, a few trees back, there to be a fourth person among them. They stay in their place for a few more minutes before leaving their hiding place before staring to walk along the path they had come from.

 
tbc
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(a/n: apologies for the time I have not been able to update. PREVIOUSLY I thought it was just a JOKE that crazy shit happened to fanfiction writers. now I am part of this running joke.
//car accident
as seen in the tag, I had my head smashed in a car accident. it affected me that i couldn't even move from the pain. my lungs dont even work properly. I also lost my blackpink the album cd to it since I couldn't get it back! and I dont even have money to buy a new one -_-
I ONLY HAD IT IN MY POSSESSION FOR LESS THAN 15 MINUTES?!?!?
still in pain 4 or 5 months later but I forced myself to finish writing this. so please I hope yall enjoyed and I'll try to update my other stories soon

tldr; apologies for not updating story, I had my head smashed in a car accident, also wasnt able to get my brand spanking new bp the album cd back:( still in pain lmao ; I'll try to update my other stories soon )