Elegy (Elegie) Sope/Yoonseok

IX

The day had lightened up even more buy the time they had finished eating their breakfast. Hoseok could sense that Yoongi was somewhat uneasy, and had some hesitancy when he spoke. When he did speak it was slightly slow as if he was distracted.

Hoseok could tell that Yoongi's father was also in a similar manner. Did they get into an arguement before he came?

Still at the dining table, they just sit around for a bit. In the middle of conversation Yoongi turns to his father and explained, "Father, for I have always tried to be a good son, to make you proud and make my mother proud, I have failed you by this. I know that I told you in my earlier years that I would continue your blood line, but I dont think I can do that..."

The older man feels his heart start to clench, he knows where this conversation is about to go. He didn't expect for it to come this so soon. He doesn't want his son to feel unworthy for his feelings.

"You know son, if you don't want to have children, that is okay with me, don't force yourself to do anything you don't want to." The older man isn't too sure if that was the right thing to say. He clasped his hands together in front of him as he looked down to them, he didn't dare make eye contact with Yoongi.

Yoongi then reaches towards Hoseok's  hand. Hoseok is taken aback but doesn't do anything to stop him. He then holds Hoseok's hand between both of his own. Hoseok looks from Yoongi to his father to see what their expressions are.

"I am not sure as to how to say this... you may find this weird... how do I say this..." Yoongi paused, not taking his gaze away from his father. "I have tried to find a woman to love, I really tried, but I always came back to my best friend. For I apologize for anything else I may not be able to do, father, one thing I will not apologize is my love for him."

Hoseok eyes slightly widened hearing him say all this. His heart started to beat faster, he felt as if his heart would break through his ribcage and out of his chest. He could feel Yoongi's grasp onto his hand.

Yoongi continues, "Father, I am not trying to bring you any stress, I am just letting you know."

Placing his hands around the warm cup of tea in front of him, the older man says, "For I can not change you, I am sure your dear mother would also support your ways. All I can say is to be careful. Just because I am to support you does not mean others are to think in the same manner. Don't take my worry as not being in your support."  The old man sighs as he tries to calm himself down, as a parent all he can do is worry for Yoongi. He hands are shakey, when tries to take a sip of tea, he notices the ripples within the cup from the movement.

Yoongi looks up at his dad, his shoulders rect with assuredness. "If I were to go and live elsewhere, would you be alright with it? I am not sure if I am to be asking for permission or I am simply stating that I would eventually do so...?"

The older man looked up at Yoongi, looking at his so he had a smile yet at the same time he did so with slightly saddened eyes. The edge of his mouth slightly trembled before he started to speak. " I know this day would to eventually come. As I said, I want the best for you and if the best is to let you fly now, then it should be." The older man paused and then lightly chuckled, " J-just dont forget about me, don't forget to write to me." It was a melancholic feeling. To feel as if a weight was lifted off his shoulders but that becoming a pain in his heart, he felt it being clenched.

Yoongi let go of Hoseok's hands to hold onto his father's. He looked him in the eyes with a understanding expression. "I will try my best to keep you in mind. I want to be someone you can be proud of, but I don't know if what I am doing is enough but-"

Gripping onto Yoongi's hands he says, "I want what is best for you, know that you are doing well and that I am proud of you. I don't want you to think that I am not." He holds onto Yoongi's hands and then reaches for Hoseok hands as well. He extended his right hand towards Hoseok. Holding their hands, he says to Hoseok, "I have known you a while now. I want you to take care of my son as he cares for you. I want you to make him happy as he does for you. And I want you to be able to tell me that you are able to do so just that. " The older man looks into Hosoek's eyes with a determination in his eyes. His glare filled with the trust he will be putting onto Hoseok.

Hoseok looked at Yoongi then back to Yoongi's father. He, with an assured tone, confidently guaranteed that he would be the best he can for him. Hoseok gave a reassuring smile, he then turned to Yoongi and nodded in affirmation. The gentle smile on his face made Hoseok's heart melt. The warmth of Yoongi's smile made Hosoek's expression soften, he felt his body relax, his shoulders slightly slouched. The warmth of his smile was something that he held dearly in his heart, Yoongi's smile is irreplaceable. The warmth of his smile made him want to protect and have Yoongi maintain his smile.

Communication among the three was much lighter after a bit. Yoongi and his dad got back to joking around, Hoseok was able to employ his usual manner of being. His jovial demeanor was quickly able to keep things flowing without getting awkward.

Hoseok helped out around the house, he even helped Yoongi and his dad tend to the garden, with guidance, since he really was not accustomed to attending to gardens and plants in general. He felt calm and relaxed working with the plants. The flowers that he tended to were a mellow and a soft pink. They were like the light blush of an apricot. The petals soft to the touch, soft as Yoongi's smile. The scent as wonderful as Yoongi. The flower in itself, Hoseok thought, was as beautiful as Yoongi is. Even if there was flaws to the flowers, whether that be a fallen petal or it was drying up, the flowers are still able to retain the beauty they held, just as someone sees their lover, it is their perfect flaws.

tbc
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A/N:

I have been working towards getting chapters out. I get frequent headaches still. I don't have much to say really. I lost many files and I have been working towards rewriting many chapters.

Anyways please support Hoseok on his official solo debut, Jack in the Box !!!

I really liked more so I'll be linking it here ^-^