Elegy (Elegie) Sope/Yoonseok

VI

Dear Yoongi,

I recieved your letter. And of course I love you very much. You are the only one I want to spend the rest of my life with. I love you. I love you more than anybody and anything in this world.

We are going back earlier than my father thought. Also I don't want to upset you but my father said he is to talk to the owner of the Lee Sugar company. He said he wants to makes some blends with spices and sugar, some pastries that he tried but he also doesn't know how to produce that, and of course you know that was a reason to why my sister was wedded. He says he wants me to marry their daughter, who is Wheein. If you want to let her know you can tell her. But just know I am not going to accept that, we can run away if that is needed. But for that we need to tell our parents, maybe. Whatever happens, happens but either way I wanna be together with you forever and ever. When we do die, our souls should forever be connected.

Also we need to be more careful. Or at least I do. My father almost started reading your letter. I dont know. But take care, I love you.

Love,

Hoseok

When Hoseok finished writing the letter he sends it of to be shipped in secret. His father would question what he was doing and who he was sending the letter to, if he were to know what he was doing.

Hoseok goes on about the day since the deal was settled pretty quickly and has nothing else about it to worry about. The only thing he has to do is that the letters mustn't be discovered. He doesn't want to burn or destroy it but he doesn't want his relationship to be hidden forever.

Hoseok hopes one day he is to be able to be free. If not him then sometime in the future he wants others to be free to be able to love who they want to love.

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Yoongi continues to write his book throughout the day. Yoongi wanted to make it a love story. Maybe like a diary.

"As he came closer to me I felt myself change. My way of being was completely controlled by his actions."

Yoongi then thought about Hoseok's presence makes him feel. His touch. His lips. His everything.

A sensation went through his body. He just wanted to have him there and make him feel excited? Yoongi doesn't know exactly what it is but it is pleasant.

Yoongi gets out a sheet of paper and starts writing to Hoseok. He hasn't gotten his letter yet but he has to express his feelings.

Hobi... Yoongi wrote. He then leans his head back and thinks how to express his feelings in writing.

As he does that there is a knocking at the door. It isnt the door to the room he sleeps in but it is the front door. Yoongi knows that Wheein went out and Jooheon is asleep so he opens the door.

Changkyun was at the door and his reaction to Yoongi was strange.

Oh...?

Yes?

I thought only Jooheon was home. I would have assumed you went with Wheein.

No? I am just writing. Jooheon is asleep.

Asleep? Oh.

I mean you can wait here and wait for him to wake up. Also Wheein should be back soon.

No that is okay.

So do you maybe want to leave a message?

No that is okay. Don't tell her I was here. I will get going.

Yoongi was confused but didn't ask any further.

Changkyun walks away so Yoongi closes the door and goes back to working on his letter and his book.

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I WROTE THIS BACK IN LATE JANUARY EARLY FEBRUARY. I SORRY I NEVER POSTED IT. I thought I had posted it. 😭😭