Elegy (Elegie) Sope/Yoonseok

V

After a day of fun. They all return back home.

Wheein goes to take a bath Jooheon talks to the serving men and Yoongi writes a letter to Hoseok.

Dear Hoseokssi,

I miss you so much. I love you. I need you back. I miss your touch and your voice. I didn't think I would be missing you like this. I hope you are doing okay right now. Do you miss me too? I hope you do because if you do not that would just make me a fool.

I went with Wheein and Jooheon to the city we came to where we met Wheein. We celebrated Yongsun's and Byulyi's anniversary. Yongsun proposed, it was so cute. I hope we can be together like that. What do you think? I don't know. I love you though. Take care. I will be waiting for a reply. 

Love,

Yoongi.

Yoongi let's the ink dry and then gets up and walks out of the room he sees Wheein now conversing with the serving men. Yoongi assumes Jooheon went to bathe.

Hey yoongi.

Hey.

Would you like some hot chocolate. Youngbae made some.

Sure.

Youngbae serves Yoongi a cup and hands it to him.

Yoongi tries it. After he does his eyes go wide.

It is so good. I think it is the best in have ever had in my life. Can you teach me the recipe?

Sure. But actually it is Kibum's recipe. I just made it with his instructions since he isn't feeling well.

Really? That is cool. Thanks. It is really good.

WHEEIN!!

Everyone looks up to a partially dressed Jooheon.

What's wrong?

I lost my bracelet.

The one with the tourmaline and opals?

Yes! The one with my birthstones! What am I to do?!

Calm down first. How about this, drink some hot chocolate, calm yourself down. Wheein hands Jooheon a cup. Jooheon then takes a small sip.

Kibum your hot chocolate is the best and I swear on that.

I mean of course. But I didn't make it. But I mean it is still my recipe tho so thanks.

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The next day Yoongi, Wheein and Jooheon go out on the search for the bracelet. They first go to Moobyul and Solar's home. Solar tells them that Changkyun took it with him and was going to return it to them.

Jooheon thanks them and they walk back home.

Later in the day Wheein and Yoongi go out to buy ingredients for dinner. Jooheon stayed home and was asleep.

When Jooheon wakes up to knocking on the door. He sees Kibum asleep. He walks around him to get to the door.

Thinking it is his sister and Yoongi he opens the door without thinking.

You guys bought some cheesecake right...?

Who he sees isn't who he thought it was. It was Changkyun.

Oh hey. Sorry. I thought you were my sister.

Hmm I must look really pretty then.

No. No. I just opened the door without thinking. Jooheon is a little flustered but calms himself down

Okay then. I just came here to drop of your bracelet. You left it...

Thanks so much. Jooheon goes into hug Changkyun but accidentally kissed him. Jooheon went from a light pink blush to a beaming bright red.
I'm so sorry. Oh my god. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to. I gotta go.

Jooheon starts to go back inside. Changkyun grabs Jooheons wrist not allowing him to go.

It is okay. Don't worry about it. I go that way so... Changkyun winks at him then turns around and walks away.

Jooheon stands there flustered and confused. After a while he goes back in.
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It is night everyone is asleep besides Jooheon. Still thinking about what had happened earlier. His sister had asked him if he was okay. He responded "yes" to that. But now that he can't get it out of his mind he really needs to let it out.

He gets up and walks into Wheein's room.

Wheein. Jooheon taps her shoulder. Wheein wake up. I need to talk to you.

After a bit Wheein wakes up.

What is wrong? Are you okay?

I don't know. I don't know how you will think of me after I tell you this. But I trust you so I can tell you. I don't think you will get too mad, I hope.

Yeah tell me. What are you to tell me?

Um... I...

Mhm.

I don't know. One day I had a dream. But I don't know. I was drunk. And so I dont know. Ay. Um. So um. I dont wanna tell you what happened in this dream. I. So. Um. I dont know. So this dream it was about Hoseok and Yoongi. They were together, like together together. So but also in the dream they said I was perverted for thinking something like that. Jooheon places his face in his hands and walks around the room in circles.

Calm down Jooheon. It is okay. Tell me. You said yourself that you trust me.

So. Um. I was thinking about that. Through that I realized that...that... um... I like... I like... men. Oh my god! Oh my god! Oh my god!

Jooheon calm down. Here sit down. Now keep on going. How did this dream make you realize?

So they, in the dream, called me perverted. And like they were together. So then like I just assumed the dream was telling me that is what I desired for myself. And so I thought about it. I only tried to get close with Yoongi is because he looked handsome. I did develop of friendship with him and I don't have feelings for him. But when I thought I admired someone I liked them. Like, like like them. Like as in relationship stuff like them. I never understood why I would get nervous around another man. But when I realized that is what was happening I just get more nervous. So like oh my god I dont know if I should tell you this since you are my sister.

Know that I will always love you. I am your sister. You being this way is what make you, you. You are Lee Jooheon. You liking men is what makes you Lee Jooheon. I mean it shouldn't represent all of you, but just know it is a part of you. If you like men, that is okay. I do too. Jooheon, if you ever want to talk to any of my friends I can set you up with them if they dont have a boyfriend or if they are open to it.

Thank so much. I love you. I love you so much. Jooheon begins to cry. He can't hold it anymore. Holding the burden for the amount of time was hard. He can't imagine how others can hide it, live their life but never be their true selves.

TO BE CONTINUED

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Good Morning.

So you maybe thinking why I be writing Jooheon parts in this story. It is important to the story. The end. I dont know how long this going to be. Maybe some 5-10 parts idk. I might need to re think some parts. But I already know 1000⁹ percent with how I am to end it 🤐🤭✌