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RanbooSaysStuff: soooooo i was wondering
RanbooSaysStuff: if I could add you on discord?

MargayLive: OH

RanbooSaysStuff: you don't have to say yes
RanbooSaysStuff: i mean i get it if you'd rather not give it :)

MargayLive: nooo no no that was not what i meant
MargayLive: i just didnt see that coming
MargayLive: of course you can have my discord
MargayLive: just keep in mind that i'm really awkward
MargayLive: especially with new people
MargayLive: my discord is Margay#3947 :)

RanbooLive: thank you :)

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Discord notification!

Ranboo sent you a friend request!

Accept//Decline

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𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐋 𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐄

Boni POV

A few days passed since Boni's eventful stream. The boy actually didn't expect that he would ever speak to  Ranboo again. He thought his life would just go back to normal, where he sat alone in his room, streaming or editing videos. Never really speaking to other people, except his classmates and family member of course. But now he had Ranboo on discord, it didn't seem like his life would be as boring anymore.

Did he finally make a friend, who he could stream with? For the past months, all of the boy's content was just him. Of course he wanted to collab with other people, but he found it really difficult to reach out to other content creators.

It seemed to easy when other people did it. For example, TommyInnit. The brit could easily make friends, even when he never really spoke to the other person. For Tommy, it all seemed to come natural. For Boni, it really didn't. The boy wished he could have the same social skills, but sadly, he coulnd't. He never really was a social butterfly. As a kid, he was always really shy. He hated to leave his parents' side, even though they didn't have a good relationship. In elementary school, he only had one good friend, who he trusted with his life. Sadly, they had never seen each other again when Boni moved to the other side of the country.

Boni was always too scared what people thought of him. Especially when he figured out he was gay, around 7th grade. Middle school was a hell, but luckily everything got better when he went to high school. He actually made some friends, which he was still very proud of. School was a lot better with friends.

A notification sound startled Boni from his thoughts. It was a discord message, from Ranboo. Suddenly, the boy was very nervous. He realized how easy he could mess this up, like he always did. Boni always had a way to mess things up. He messed up his relationship with his parents, he messed up his friendship, when he moved across the country, he messed up his grades, and so much more.

Boni was just kinda messed up.

Boni clicked on the message with slow movements. It was so tempting to just ignore the message, to act like he never saw it. Like he did with most of his problems. But, suprisingly, he didn't.

Ranboo: hey! wanna vc?

That made the boy slightly panic. He found typing already scary, let alone talking. But he had already seen the message. He couldn't undo that. And he really didn't want to say no to Ranboo, this was his only chance to make a new friend.

Margay: Sure! Give me 5 minutes :)

Boni really needed those 5 minutes to calm down. He focused on Meatball, who was sleeping in his lap, again. The cat's fur was very soft, something that could always calm the teenager down. He took a deep breath, while nerves were running through his stomach like little devils. He closed his eyes, trying to focus only on the soft fur.

So soft.

Everything is okay.

Everything will be fine.

But Boni didn't believe it. Because he always messed things up. That was the reason his parents didn't love him, and honestly, Boni couldn't blame them. He always wondered why his aunt and uncle still wanted him in their house. He wasn't even their son. But he felt like he was. His aunt and uncle felt more like his parents than his actual parents did.

Before the boy even realized, the 5 minutes had already passed. Ranboo called him. Boni didn't know what to do. Ignore or pick up.

Ignore or pick up?

Ignore?

or pick up?

No, he couldn't ignore Ranboo. The boy didn't deserve that.

But if he would pick up, he would mess up, right? Like he always did. That was the one thing he was actually good at. Anxiety kicking in, Boni wanted to press decline. But he didn't. It wasn't fair to decline, he said he would come.

So his cursor made it's way to the accept button. And, he pressed it.

"Hello?" Ranboo's voice sounded confused. It was probraly because it took Boni really long to answer the call. Ranboo probably didn't expect him to actually answer, he took too long.

"Margay, you there?"

"I- uh y-yeah," the younger boy stammered. He tried to concentrate on Meatball's soft fur. He really tried, but the fact that he was in a call with someone was just too scary.

"Are you okay?" Ranboo sounded concerned. Which wasn't weird, considering Boni sounded like he just had a encounter with a ghost. This was not the Margay Ranboo saw on stream. That Margay was calm and relaxed. This Margay was scared.

"Yeah I am uh fine... yeah" Margay answered, still trying to focus on Meatball's soft fur. He almost succeeded. If only Meatball stayed in his lap. But no, the cat ran away the second he heard a sound coming from the kitchen. He was just hoping to get some food, even though it wasn't even close to dinner time for the pet.

"No, Meatball!" Boni whispered softly. His last piece of comfort just ran away. The cat was obsessed with food.

"What?" Ranboo sounded even more confused than before. "Meatball?"

Now, without the cat that gave him comfort, Boni really didn't know what to do anymore. So he did the only thing he could think about. He pressed the big red button, at the bottom of the screen.

Boni messed up again. That was what he always did. Boni always found a way to mess up.

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written on march 13th 2021