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I'm a dirty half-virgin

only because of lacking of occasion.

The first was the Blond

Persian

Prince friend

to whom I didn't ask for anything.

(The strong desire

to kiss his lips

when we met again in middle school.

The stolen white ass cheeks at the pool...)

Then the Saracen

Ali of Philology.

To him, I never asked.

I wanted to.

(The flashy striped hat

in the je-suis-charlie photo he posted

Finally made me fall out of love)

And the supposed pornstar

who offered a handjob

which I declined.

And the first date.

The-Man-with-the-Pigeon-Neck

across the night in San Berillio neighborhood.

(I still hold dear the biscuit-smelling

white paper).

He never called back.

And that guy, the pushy

Gym Suit Feticist.

I can still feel his leg rubbing against mine

while I try to watch Thor: Ragnarok.

Sorry, man. I must have

misinterpreted the allusion of your invitation.

Then it came the time of the Big Hot Cat

who boringly played

a little with my virginity

like it was a wounded bird.

At last, here it is The-Man-Who-Smiles.

I'm afraid his teeth are just

a mirror maze which sooner or later

will break my reflected heart.

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