Alexithymia

Chapter 8: The Devil turned into a therapist

By the time I woke up, Kai is already gone, I put on a black oversized t shirt and my panties then walks downstairs, "hmm yum," I said after I walk to the living room, "oh hey you are awake, how are you feeling?" Kai turns around holding a knife, if he is not wearing an apron right now I would've thought he was about to stab me, "good, you?" I look at him while leaning against the kitchen counter in front of him, "good, I'm cooking you spaghetti," he sends me a wink, "you need any help?" I ask him nicely, "no I've seen what you did in the kitchen," he gives me a sarcastic smile.

I put my hand over my chest and put up a fake pout, "that hurt my feelings Baymax," then he starts laughing at my words, "I like it when you call me Baymax," he looks at me with a child like smile, "why? Does no one else calls you that? You actually start to look like him now," I chuckle under my breath, "they call me an abomination," he gulps, "yea... You want water?" I look at him nervously, "you really don't know how to comfort people do you?" He looks at me while chopping tomatoes, "unfortunately nope, but if you ever need help killing someone, I am the one to call, only if Nik didn't put me in a box," I let out a snort at my own joke.

"Why do you look concerned?" I ask him, "dude you literally said your own brother daggers you like nothing," he tries not to look concerned, "look, no one is perfect, you said it yourself, and plus you killed your own siblings too," I point my finger at him then walks over to the fridge, "god, I knew I shouldn't said that to you, now I am tasting my own medicine, and we are not the same, me? Actually wasn't close to my siblings and they only know me for less than a decade, you? All of your siblings are older than dinosaurs, so it's different," he explains.

I gave him a are you serious look then starts rambling, "look I don't think about it that much alright? If I die, I die, there's nothing I can do about it, plus my life is normal, everyone's parents leave them, and not everyone's boyfriends are alive, I just don't deal with them, that's how I deal with it, and I am fine, more than fine, better than ever, I rather call it having a spicy life than trauma, maybe I should compel a camera man and start my own show, but I don't think Nik is gonna be happy. Everyone has their own way of dealing with trauma, mine is don't deal with them, that's why I left your body next the tunnel Damon dug." I suddenly covered my mouth with my hand after realizing what I said.

"Wait what did you just say?" He walks towards me, "nothing, I need to go, I need to meet with someone, like right now," I start walking towards the door, but Kai used his magic to cheat again, "sweetheart we are in prison world, who are you gonna meet hmm?" He backs me up against the wall, "a ghost?" I raise my eyebrows looking at him, "not funny? No? Tough crowd today," I begin to flutter. Kai is clearly enjoying it, "you left me because you didn't know what to say to me?" Kai looks at me softly, he starts caressing my face as he speaks.

I stare into his eyes, "you have something on your apron," I tried to clean it with my hand but he grabs it and brings it to his chest, "you haven't answered my question yet," Kai says softly, "yes I did, because I felt horrible after what you said to me before Bonnie killed you," I swallows and looks at my feet, he lifts my chin up, "stop avoiding me, I thought you left me there because you never liked me, that's why I snapped," his eyes start to look shiny, "I like you more than I could say, and I would never leave you on purpose, I just panicked, sorry," I said softly, then he rest his forehead against mine, "me too, I don't think I've ever liked someone this much, it scares me sometimes," he whispers, "I get it, and you are still holding that knife."

We both chuckles at the same time, "come on, let's get back to cooking," he pulls away and stretch out his free hand, I take his hand in mine and wrap my finger around his then walk back to the kitchen.

"The devil turned into a therapist, who would've thought," I said while eating my spaghetti, "we all know you love it," he winks at me, "do you uhh, well are you, do you—" I shift in my seat while trying to find words to say, "what?" Kai puts his fork down look at me with amusement in his eyes, "do you think, that umm, there is peace?" I ask him anxiously, "I don't think so," I sigh at his words, "I don't think there is peace, for us, you just need to keep your head up and armor on," my head shot up after hearing his words.

I don't know what kind of feeling I am having right now, "you know they always say time makes pain goes away, I don't think that's true either, because I have lived for over a thousand years, have seen many empires fall, another one rose after, but the pain of losing someone is still so fresh, as if it happens yesterday," I said while staring at my half empty plate, "time doesn't make pain go away sweetheart, it only numbs you, make you think that is gone, but it is still there, somewhere buried inside your heart, there is some pain that can't be healed, no matter what, you just need to learn how to live with it," then he takes a sip of his wine.

For the whole time, I just keep staring him like an idiot, "stop fucking me in your mind," his words made me snap back to the reality, "yea, what?" I suddenly look at him after realizing what he just said, "you can't say you weren't," he smirks like a devil, "do you have any girlfriend back in you know?" I ask him then start drinking my wine, "no I have a wife and 2 kids," I spit out my wine after hearing his words, "what?" I look at him like a deer just saw a headlight.

Kai bursts out into laughters, "omg you should look at yourself right now," he says while wiping his tears away from laughing so hard, "no I don't, I do have an ex if that's what you were wondering, why? Jealous already?" He raises one of his eyebrows, "wow you are so humble," I said with sarcasm in my voice. "Was she a supernatural?" I continue to ask him, "no, just a little human, we only dated for a few months, god she was amazing in bed, the thing she used to do wi—" I cut him off by coughing, "jealous much babe?" He looks at me.

"No, I had more exes than you ha," I said with a fake smile, "oof, didn't know we are back in kindergarten already, fill me in then, I promise I won't tell our teacher," he puts his chin on his hand and rest against it.

"I had 3 ex boyfriends and my brother Klaus killed 2 of them," I look at him with a straight face, "what about the other one?" He frowns, "Elena killed him, he was trying to help my brother Kol, and both of them ended up dead, so if you wanna live, one tip, stay away from me," I put up a sad smile this time. "Wow, that took a dark turn, but you know I won't leave you right?" He suddenly looks at me, "yea you made it clear before, but don't people always do that? Saying they won't leave someone then leave them the next day," I chuckle and finish my wine.

Kai rubs his temples after hearing what I said, "no, I don't know what kind of people did you surround yourself with before you came here, but I never made any promises to anyone, and frankly, I don't want to leave you, I need you to believe me on that," Kai says while holding my hand on the table, "yea, I won't leave you too," I look at him with a genuine smile for the first time in this decade.

After the dinner, we are cuddling on the couch, "do you wanna play monopoly?" I ask him, "no," he said without hesitation, "why?" I look at him with a pout, "because you cheat," Kai says with a straight face, I look at him with shock written over my face. "You really think that I didn't see you were stealing from the bank that time?" Kai pinches my cheek lightly, I start giggling in his arms, "stop it," I try to push his hands away because he starts tickling me.

I shift in his arms but he pulls me closer, "it's itchy, stop it," my laughter is getting louder, "that's the point," he suddenly rolls on top of me, we look into each other's eyes then it feels like the time has stopped right there, I run my fingers through his hair and pull him in, he deepen the kiss between us.

He continues sucking the air out of my lungs, a few seconds later we both pull away for more air, "do you wanna go to Portland tomorrow?" Kai asks me, "Portland? Why? I thought you hate that place," I look at him while catching up my breath, "yea I just want to show it to someone, who's important to me," he bites the bottom of his pink lips.

I let out a small chuckle, "my pleasure then," I start giggling again, "woah where are we going?" I said after he suddenly lifts me up and carries me in his arms, "taking a bath Miss Mikaelson," I can see the wide grin on his face, "you are so annoying," I kick my legs around while giggling in his arms, "and you love it," he looks at me while laughing, "yea I guess I do," then I feel the heat on both of my cheeks again.